What you got Boy is hard to find
I think about it all the time
I;m all strung out, my heart is fried
I just can't get You off my mind
 welcome to www.reminiscense-of-life.blogspot.com! i am Fariani! Ppl call me Farfar or Farr for short. well, i'm living a fun-filled small little world with a sweet loving family. Together sharing my happines with beloved BFFLs Mia,Nutt,Aisyah,Nifa and Yayat! And not forgetting darling close babes and dudes, Linda, Ifah, Hamka, Khai! Living a world being short is fun! Loving spending every minute living with laughters from everyone! Life is too short to be miserable, so Live with it! And oh my! i'm turning 18 this september! GOSH! 18 is such nt a good number to me. but, just watch out! here i come BEEP BEEP! with my cute lil car! SOON!! =)) (more?:D) |
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Ups and Downs
Friday, March 26, 2010, 03:01
 I WANT THIS CAR CAN!!!! well, have been talking about motorbikes and cars whenever i'm walking with Hunny... and of course i'm in love with that one at the top!! SUPER HAWT LA SEYYY!!!!! it's pink, it's cute and it's sexy!!! WOOHOO!!! (Y) okayy let's get to my days... so Monday was the day we got to know our results. and i failed my maths... ='( so i got to know the rest passed everything and yea... i was seriously devastated! even Hunny says so... he was mad at me too... not because of my results but because of what my results made me... i didnt txt/call him from the time i saw my results, ard 11am till afternoon..
sorry sweetheart! =)) so yea, my darlings tried to cheer me up but yea. guess im okayy now.. i know u will be there supporting me... =)) so took it in positively... so yea, Mia helped me get things of my mind. we went to the new park beside the carpark where we usually chill at. took several pics. =)) check it out on FB... will put it up soon! =)) had alot of fun there! the playground was AWESOME! got flying fox... and the see-saw is cool! haha!! we were like kids seyy! haha!! but mission accomplished! thx BFFL! <3 so then had a few conflicts with Hunny.... normal i guess but everything's okayy! =)) ouh and Hunny is having fever now. i'm very worried coz he's working tmw... take GOOD care of urself k sweetheart? =) <3<3 ouh and yea!! i caught the movie, How to train a dragon with Hunny just now!!! TWO THUMBS UP!!! =)) gotta watch it okayy peeps! =)) it's great! just by wanting to watch a movie, i "bumped" into my babes and hunks! only God knows how much i miss u guys.... hope to meet up and chill up soon!! =)) kayy... till here... though some ppl may say they let go of things already, it sometimes isnt true... and yea, life gives us the ups and downs.... just be patient, and dun give up coz there will always be someone there to support u from the back. =)) (Y) kayy... going jogging with BFFL soon! =)) MISS ME! =)) Rotting at home
Sunday, March 21, 2010, 15:33
 Wherever you are it is your friends who make your world... Just typing it out coz in the photo, it's not that clear... so there's always a reason why i put a photo before a post... for this one, im gonna talk about rain and of course friends... =)) And this is gonna be a long post, so read if u want to and get lost if u don't want to... So as all of you might know it has been raining for the past few days... and for that, i'm too lazy to bring an umbrella out... so i'd rather stay at home and rot. -.- so here i am blogging coz i am seriously rotting now. hahaha!!! XD Hunny wanted to meet me, but i'm too lazy to get out of my house... sorry hunny... =)) I've been thinking lately... Of all the sacrifices i've made for my friends, be it close or not.... To think of it again... it's not worthy... i'm too good to them... again, i'm not pointing fingers to anybody okayy!! dun feel bad. it's just a flashback...!! may happen recently or also a long time way back then... and it's just reflections of my life that i feel like blogging... i'm a human being myself. i feel what you feel. i make mistakes like u did or may do in future. so forgive me if anything hurts anyone. and let me remind you again, this is just a reflection!! I used to believe in friends first then boyfriend... or best friends first then friends... but not anymore... only certain friends i believe in and i trust most... but sometimes they just prove themselves wrong... when i put them first, they'll put me last... it's heartbreaking to see that happens, seriously... only the person whom i trust most, whom i share my tears and laughters with knows... i know i've made mistakes to my friends who trust me... but it's a mistake! i'm not that sorta person... i do wanna save friendships which are gonna break apart... i tend to them. i try to make them happy with me... someone even told me this in malay of course, "Farr, u can still joke with her after what happen?" so i told her," i wanna save this friendship" and yea, it's okayy now if u wanna know. but thinking again and to say truthfully, i dun think it's okayy... if it's all okayy, things will be back to normal... and i MEAN normal... But it doesnt seems so... i asked the ppl close to me for advices... they replied the same thing, which is... "Just go with the flow. act like normal. but don't be desperate.." so i'm okayy with it. i'm used to these situations... sometimes i wonder why am i always in this situation? im a human myself. can't u forgive me and move on?? I tried my best to help friends achieve what they want. I tried my best to help friends through thick and thin. in terms of anything that i can... but seems nothing is treasured... true what Hunny told me, "don't sacrifice for ur friends. it's no use... u'll suffer later..." and it's true... he was with me for almost 1year5months. he witnessed everything. he was there with me. yes we did broke up at some time but yea, he was still there. thx hunny. appreciate it lots! and he warned me, dun give face to whoever asking help/favour from me. but me, i cant stop myself. and i continued to help. some time later, i cried to him. and keep asking why me? all he can do is just listen coz he dn wanna hurt me more by saying, "told u so!" haha... i can imagine him saying it to me now... and we'll be laughing together. so it happened again for the last time i hope. i helped a friend out. and it seems like whatever this person wants was achieved... im here trying to achieve the same thing still hasnt. and i dun think i'll knw this if i wasnt close to another person. oh well.... that's life..... =)) just take it in, and learn to let go... i'm very happy for 2 of my friends... really hope these laughters they share will last long... oh and, through thick and thin, a relationship will last long if you learn to forgive and forget. =)) whatever is your next step, take it slow. after all, you're still young! =)) ouh and one more thing!! tell me if anything happens okayy!!! dun keep it!! hehe.....!!!! =D so lastly, i hope to get a job soon...!!! saiful is trying to get to his friend to give me a job.... *fingers crossed* i hope i get it!! so before i end this post coz i wnna talk to Hunny, =)) and then maybe take a nap, i wanna apologize if anything i said hurt anybody... I'M SORRY... toodles!!! MISS ME!!! =))))) Secret is out! =))
Thursday, March 18, 2010, 23:36
 Isn't she adorable?? HEY PEEPS! =)) just felt like blogging again. nothing much happened tday. planned to chill at hunny's place... but when i woke up, (which is ard 1pm i think. -.-) hunny called in saying he wanted to meet his old buddy at Tanjong Pagar. so i just tag along. firstly, wanted to meet hunny at 3pm under my blk. but, while i'm almost ready at ard 2.45pm, i called him. and his voice was seriously damn tired. he said he wanted to meet his old buddy tmw... then i kept whining...... =)) so yea, it was raining heavily. so i went over to his place and waited for him to get ready. he said i look sweet tday.. *blushing* thx hunny!! =)) so headed down to Tanjong Pagar. met his old buddy. then headed down to Vivo City for awhile. by then it was 6pm. Both of us, were seriously HUNGRY! i realised for this few days, i've not been eating properly. -.- so we ate at banquet, he ate Laksa and i ate Prawn noodle... BOTH SEDAAAPP!!!! =DD then we just walk2 ard Vivo City. look at the sights... i totally frgot smeone worked there. i saw his friends... didnt expect them to recognize my face, coz i didnt recognize any... but nvm, Hunny was there. he said, "come, im here..." i was like AWWW!!!! how sweet is he... I LOVE YOU, Muhammad Farhan Bin Fhaidil! woohooo!!! secret's out! i'm back tgether with him ppl!! hehe... sorry i hid it for so long. hunny didnt let me mention to anybody. OUH YA!!! if u're wondering why i put the pic of a kitten up there, it's coz it's super damn f-ing CUTE! =)) and also, coz smebdy said... that my face without make up, looks prettier, and looks like a cat.... awww.... haha!! and tht smebdy is Dino!! hahaha!! UNBELIEVABLE! oh ya, i forgot to wish u, HAPPY BELATED 1 MONTHSARY! hope korg last long kayy??? =)) InsyaAllah we go Pulau Ubin next month kayy??? ok that's it for now... i wanna watch ANTM!!!! Petite season Okayy!! let me remind u that!!! =)) Dun look down on us! k MISS ME!!!! =DDD Fully recovered! =))
Wednesday, March 17, 2010, 19:12
 wonder why i fell in love with this pic... Hey peeps!! =)) i'm sorry for not updating for awhile... But reasons are coz my lappy fell ill... i just fetched her off from Alexandra Technopark. it's all well now... =)) come and visit if u want to... -.- k stop merepek-ing girl! So, i had a hell of a time this week... i seriously dnnoe where to start... hmm... i only remember the awesome and latest times i spent.. so if i missed out any, im sorry.. firstly, went swimming with Hunny's family! =)) it was kinda last minute. so yea, met Hunny at Al-Ameen with his bestie, Dino... then headed to his place to chill fr a while. then headed to KFC and Teh Tarik. bought our meals to de swimming complex. once we reached there, Hunny and Adi started eating. -.- ppl swim then eat, they all eat then swim. because of them we also eat. hahahahaha!!! XD then went swimming... and all that la... oh ya, we reached there at ard 6pm... so swim till ard 9pm... then washed up... and headed down to civic's macdonald. had a few brownies and McCafes... that's one of it... the other one was to go cycling with Hunny, Linda and Saiful. but didnt manage to do it... so decided to go bowling... but then, full house... -.- so we decided to watch a movie.. we watched Green Zone... hell of a war movie!! but i love the storyline!! =)) then we had our dinner at Pasir Ris, we had Burger King... then just chilled there till ard 8.45... such a sweet romantic night...!! I LOVED IT! =)) then headed home... well, that's all for now... =)) now watching Glee!!! (Y) BYE!! MISS ME!!! =)) Exhausted!
Friday, March 5, 2010, 23:33
 just felt like putting this... coz i look cute... hurhur... ^_^ Hey there! soo many stories to say. But i'll just cut everything short. Coz i wanna shower! =)) i actually just came back from my silat training... so yea am kinda smelly + tired. But really feel like blogging... so i better do it before i change my mind. So upcoming plans will be: -take my passport -repair my crazy lappy -.- -Overnight -Outing with crazy bunch of EXC6 -BFFLs' chalet So, past few days has been great for me... from spending time with Mia to going out with Dear Farhan... haha... funny u knw! Dear Farhan... coz i just watched Dear John! =)) k lame i knw... -.- So, watched it with Linda, Saiful and Dear Farhan... (just cant stop laughing abt the DEAR) -.- really had fun la seyy! if u wnna knw details, go to Linda's blog. i lazy wanna story telling... HAHA! But overall, i did have fun! i remembered me and Farhan dared the other two to do somethings.. which comes to saiful's revenge to me just now. So we kinda had a friendly fight. but got this one time, i LITERALLY terkejut beruk... HAHAH!! pathetic. nvr had that kinda moment before... -.- so, before training, spent time with linda and mia.. accompanied linda for a haircut. then chill at mia's crib. then they wanted to come down for training. so WOOO!! =PP THX KORG!! SAYAAAANG KORG! hurhur... so ive been thinking abt this one thing. i dnnoe la. it's been bothering me abit. but nobody knws abt it. it's best for me to keep it for my own knwing. just may wanna say this. u've changed so much. maybe due to me. i always have this dream, whereby we went to our separate ways.. it's saddening and heartbreaking. but i hope and really do hope that it will nvr turn out that way. coz no matter how bad things turned out to be, u do mean something in my heart. and nvr would i wnna lose u... sometimes it hurts just to realise that we nvr do what we used to. but yea, ppl change. i change too... i know. and im sorry... ok, i wnna shower now!! WEEE.... ^_^ hurhur.. MISS ME! =)) |
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