pink lover

TESTS!!!!

2010-05-23T13:25:00.003+08:00

Hey Peeps!!!

Just wanna blog hahahah!!! sempat!!

So, as u all can see, Tests on the upcoming weeks...

I seriously gotta start mugging!!

and yea, worked 3 days straight 3pm-11pm..!!!

PENAT!!! got my rest yesterday...

so now gotta mug mug mug!!!

but before i start mugging...

Just wanna do a lil shout out...

to my frens, if u have any kind of prob, im always here...

pls dun hesitate to share...

and yea, someone reach month already seyy!!

hahaha!!! wished them already... but not here...

so here i am... wishing you two...

Happy first Monthsary guys!!! <33

Last Long!! and jgn gado2...!!

to You and You!!! HAHHAAH!!!!

u knw who u are...

so i gtg now...

hunny wanna go eat...

so i need to siap now!!

MISS ME!!! =))

Fun week!

2010-05-16T03:28:00.004+08:00

He's my Everything! <3

hey peeps!

just felt like blogging...

so, this week was Awesome+Tiring!

i had my PMS the whole week.

didnt even helped out with some projects...

sorry babes! =((

so yea, Hunns wanted to surprise me with a bag...

so he planned with my babes..

but i did warned him, im not in the mood for surprises.

so yea, they gave me a surprise.

but my mood got them over....

im sorry for tht.. cant help with the cramps and all...

so here, i wanna thank all of u...

Hunns, ifah, linda and hamka!! =)) <3<3

then on friday, i tag along hunns with his frens...

we went karaoke... BEST!!!

so long nvr karaoke...

and this "betina" (hahahah!!! *looks at fana while giggling together*) spoil the whole Fun moment...

really enjoyed though...

but reached home ard 2am++... =PP

so then Saturday, ajak hunns and someone go Bugis...

wanted to buy a top and a side bag...

but the top, couldnt be found.

but i got a bag... =))

then headed down to orchard cineleisure..

eat at OTWC, and met up with someone...

then headed down to CWP coz wanna watch movie...

we got 4 movie tix for free!! =))

but hunns and i got one, the other 2 got theirs...

so then no time to watch movie... =((

so we just play games at timezone!

=DD

that's it for now...!!! =))

P.S: Loneliness never fail to conquer me.

But u'll always be there fighting it.

Just for me, I LOVE YOU! =))

Just letting out... =))

2010-05-10T22:44:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps ! =)

So, im actually supposed to do some research for A chem project.

but i cant help thinking abt this... and also waiting for Hunny to makan.. =.=

there's a few things actually...

so firstly,

what will u do if let's say you're damn hot but damn ugly?

get it? if not then nvm...

it's like everybody who dnnoe u wanna get close to u.

but for sme who knows u, will try to back away...

hmm... i cant picture tht happening in my life!!

hmm... but nvm abt tht!

secondly,

what will u do to someone who just keep pushing ppl ard with werds and not absorb others?

in a way, expects ppl to listen and understand them,

but they will never do that back...

thirdly,

ur close buddy didnt wanna listen to u.

now that buddy is suffering,

will u still save tht buddy of yrs?

lastly,

someone talk big abt it...

but nothing happens...

not only tht, the thing talked abt gets worst...

so this is just some thoughts and things bothering me...

though ppl tell me,

LET IT GO!!

i cant... coz im partly involve too....

so till here...

jgn plak ader yg terasa...

i want solutions...

not fights kayy! =))

MISS ME!!! =))

Felt like blogging

2010-05-07T22:40:00.003+08:00

HEY!!! =DDD

I really feel sick now! I dnnoe why...

Maybe my hunns passed his"angin" to me.

HEADACHE SEYY!!!

But nvm... despite all that, i really felt like blogging...

So, went thru alot, i must say...

It has been a VERY tough week for me i guess...

So, Monday was the worst!!!

my bro woke me up... he thought i took his MP4... o.O

i took it bfore i knw. but SORRY LA!!!

this time it's not me!!! I SWEAR!!!

the saddest part was that, even my mum dun trust me on this one...

i felt like breaking into tears when i found out...

well, afterall, she's the worst in the family mahh...

can't help it... haiz...

due to that my mood really went down the drain!

even hunns got scolded by me... Sorry hunns!

so yea, the rest of the days seem to be okayy...

i started this telemarketing work on wed!

FUN! FUN! FUN!!!

"Good evening Mr ____. I'm from ____ and i'd like to inform u......."

and the line goes on!!!

hahah!! i got my own "office"...

HAHAHAH!!! XD

so yea, now i just got back from birthday girl's house...

hope she enjoyed herself...

ouh and, she got 4 surprises in total by us!!!

how lucky are u babe??!!!

So Linda, here i wanna wish u again!!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!!!!

dah legal seyy!!! =DDD

semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki ye kak! =))

Live the rest of tday well babe!!!

LOVE YA!!

so, till here... i need to fnish my reflections for SemPro3!!!

toodles!!! MISS ME!!!

=))

P.S: really scared! hope everything goes on just fine.

didnt expect the pressure to be this high...

Thoughts

2010-04-30T10:09:00.007+08:00

Do i look like this when i kiss? =PP

Last night, couldn't fall asleep.

Hunny was already sleeping. guess he's tired.

didn't wanna bother him so tried hard to sleep.

Nightmares kills me every minute i shut my eyes.

had so many things in mind i guess...

so decided to read a book.

managed to finish a chapter = 25pages

still can't sleep, and it was already 2.30am.

listened back to our past conversations.

the phone calls made before he entered NS.

read back all the sweet text messages he sent me.

couldn't imagine how i felt when i knew i lost him.

but luck came back and i've got him back with me.

so now i'm just lucky to get him.

and i guess i just miss him so much last night.

therefore, i wanna say.

I MISS YOU! =))

I LOVE YOU! <33

Updates!!! =))

2010-04-29T21:34:00.002+08:00

Hey Ho!! hahahah!! XD

so i've been gone for so long! Damn! I'm sooo sorry! especially for those who expect me to update them abt my life here... hehs... not on purpose kayy!! I've been too busy to even switch my lappy on. So this is gonna be a darn hell long of a post. I have a whole month to tell u guys!!

Here i start. maybe some missed out. too many to actually rmmber all...

So i remember going on a chalet with my dear Beloved BFFLs,

though Hunny can't overnight 'coz he's working the next day... =((

But i had fun though! we swam at night!

oh, the chalet is at Sentosa!!! =)) AWESOME!!!

we BBQ-ed at ard 5pm... then Hunny asked us to swim first, afterall, he's the chef for the night!

hahah!! then Hunny taught us how to do the front flips into the pool...

he did back flips too! (Y)

Oh, i did front flips... and mia and yayat too...

However, Nutt very Cacat!! hahhah!! she like ballerina...

she wanted to do front flip but become A...

but she nvr give up... almost there BFFL! =))

then still got the Pulau Ubin trip with Hunny and his friends...

AWESOME!! but not at all point of time...

this dumbo ass was there...

DAMN I HATE HER!!

she run into my bike... said sorry but didnt mean it...

can gatal2 with my man sme more... WTF!!

so yea, i got tanned after that trip... and i think i lost some weight too! (Y)

Next is trip to nenek peah's chalet...

Hunny's family side...

i didnt overnight. coz Hunny was at work...

so we joined them the next day... went to Escape...

it's now boring coz Fun rides are not there anymore...

but yea, did have ALOT of fun!!

i cant really remember much though so i cant explain further... sorry!

then i cant remember anything else now...

besides hanging out with dear babe, Linda....

and ya think tht's it for holidays...

oh! one last thing!

i read up eclipse!! now trying to finish breaking dawn...

thx babe for the books! (Y)

So school time...

great!! now is the 2nd last day of 2nd week...

first week was awesome! but yea, tasks, assignments all piling up...

and i'm still the class rep since Yr1Sem1... o.O

SO many responsibilities....!!!!!

but nvm... with my babes and hunks and Hunny,

never will i live a second without a smile on my face.... =)))

oh, and last friday, me and the babes had this photoshoot!!

it was at The Studio!

thx to Linda for winning the thing...

had tonnes of fun posing and all...

we bought 5photos for $60 each...

but its worth it! will show u guys soon! =))

so yea...

that's the major things happening so far...

oh, so today is 29th April 2010...

Happy 7th monthsary Khai and Fee...

Last long and stay happy!!!

=)))

oh, and and, 3 more days to 2nd May 2010!!

for me and Hunny to turn a month older! =))

Farhan Fhaidil and Nurul Fariani,

together for 1yr6months!! <33

LOVE U!!! =))

really appreciate all the things done just for me dear!

u're my Mr Hawtstuff!! =))

Guess that's all for now...

TTYL! Miss me!!!

toodles!!! =))

P.S: am i that bad looking?? is it just 'coz i'm short and fat??

SORRY!!!

2010-04-24T16:48:00.001+08:00

Heyy peeps!!
Promise u i'll update soon!!
been very busy ...
--________________--

-Lotsa Love,
Farr Andrea!

Ups and Downs

2010-03-26T03:01:00.003+08:00

I WANT THIS CAR CAN!!!!

well, have been talking about motorbikes and cars whenever i'm walking with Hunny...

and of course i'm in love with that one at the top!!

SUPER HAWT LA SEYYY!!!!!

it's pink, it's cute and it's sexy!!! WOOHOO!!! (Y)

okayy let's get to my days...

so Monday was the day we got to know our results.

and i failed my maths... ='(

so i got to know the rest passed everything and yea...

i was seriously devastated!

even Hunny says so... he was mad at me too...

not because of my results but because of what my results made me...

i didnt txt/call him from the time i saw my results, ard 11am till afternoon..
sorry sweetheart! =))

so yea, my darlings tried to cheer me up but yea. guess im okayy now..

i know u will be there supporting me... =))

so took it in positively...

so yea, Mia helped me get things of my mind.

we went to the new park beside the carpark where we usually chill at.

took several pics. =)) check it out on FB... will put it up soon! =))

had alot of fun there! the playground was AWESOME! got flying fox... and the see-saw is cool!

haha!! we were like kids seyy! haha!!

but mission accomplished! thx BFFL! <3

so then had a few conflicts with Hunny....

normal i guess

but everything's okayy! =))

ouh and Hunny is having fever now.

i'm very worried coz he's working tmw...

take GOOD care of urself k sweetheart? =) <3<3

ouh and yea!!

i caught the movie, How to train a dragon with Hunny just now!!!

TWO THUMBS UP!!! =))

gotta watch it okayy peeps! =))

it's great! just by wanting to watch a movie, i "bumped" into my babes and hunks!

only God knows how much i miss u guys....

hope to meet up and chill up soon!! =))

kayy...

till here...

though some ppl may say they let go of things already,

it sometimes isnt true...

and yea,

life gives us the ups and downs....

just be patient, and dun give up

coz there will always be someone there to support u from the back. =))

(Y)

kayy... going jogging with BFFL soon! =))

MISS ME! =))

Rotting at home

2010-03-21T15:33:00.011+08:00

Wherever you are it is your friends who make your world...

Just typing it out coz in the photo, it's not that clear...

so there's always a reason why i put a photo before a post...

for this one, im gonna talk about rain and of course friends... =))

And this is gonna be a long post, so read if u want to and get lost if u don't want to...

So as all of you might know it has been raining for the past few days...

and for that, i'm too lazy to bring an umbrella out... so i'd rather stay at home and rot. -.-

so here i am blogging coz i am seriously rotting now. hahaha!!! XD

Hunny wanted to meet me, but i'm too lazy to get out of my house...

sorry hunny... =))

I've been thinking lately...

Of all the sacrifices i've made for my friends, be it close or not....

To think of it again... it's not worthy... i'm too good to them...

again, i'm not pointing fingers to anybody okayy!! dun feel bad. it's just a flashback...!!

may happen recently or also a long time way back then...

and it's just reflections of my life that i feel like blogging...

i'm a human being myself. i feel what you feel. i make mistakes like u did or may do in future.

so forgive me if anything hurts anyone. and let me remind you again, this is just a reflection!!

I used to believe in friends first then boyfriend...

or best friends first then friends... but not anymore...

only certain friends i believe in and i trust most...

but sometimes they just prove themselves wrong... when i put them first, they'll put me last...

it's heartbreaking to see that happens, seriously...

only the person whom i trust most, whom i share my tears and laughters with knows...

i know i've made mistakes to my friends who trust me...

but it's a mistake! i'm not that sorta person...

i do wanna save friendships which are gonna break apart...

i tend to them. i try to make them happy with me...

someone even told me this in malay of course,

"Farr, u can still joke with her after what happen?"

so i told her," i wanna save this friendship"

and yea, it's okayy now if u wanna know.

but thinking again and to say truthfully, i dun think it's okayy...

if it's all okayy, things will be back to normal... and i MEAN normal...

But it doesnt seems so...

i asked the ppl close to me for advices... they replied the same thing, which is...

"Just go with the flow. act like normal. but don't be desperate.."

so i'm okayy with it. i'm used to these situations...

sometimes i wonder why am i always in this situation?

im a human myself. can't u forgive me and move on??

I tried my best to help friends achieve what they want.

I tried my best to help friends through thick and thin.

in terms of anything that i can...

but seems nothing is treasured...

true what Hunny told me,

"don't sacrifice for ur friends. it's no use... u'll suffer later..."

and it's true... he was with me for almost 1year5months.

he witnessed everything. he was there with me.

yes we did broke up at some time but yea, he was still there.

thx hunny. appreciate it lots!

and he warned me, dun give face to whoever asking help/favour from me.

but me, i cant stop myself. and i continued to help.

some time later, i cried to him. and keep asking why me?

all he can do is just listen coz he dn wanna hurt me more by saying, "told u so!"

haha... i can imagine him saying it to me now... and we'll be laughing together.

so it happened again for the last time i hope.

i helped a friend out.

and it seems like whatever this person wants was achieved...

im here trying to achieve the same thing still hasnt.

and i dun think i'll knw this if i wasnt close to another person.

oh well.... that's life..... =))

just take it in, and learn to let go...

i'm very happy for 2 of my friends...

really hope these laughters they share will last long...

oh and, through thick and thin, a relationship will last long if you learn to forgive and forget.

=))

whatever is your next step, take it slow. after all, you're still young! =))

ouh and one more thing!! tell me if anything happens okayy!!!

dun keep it!! hehe.....!!!! =D

so lastly, i hope to get a job soon...!!!

saiful is trying to get to his friend to give me a job....

*fingers crossed*

i hope i get it!!

so before i end this post coz i wnna talk to Hunny, =))

and then maybe take a nap,

i wanna apologize if anything i said hurt anybody...

I'M SORRY...

toodles!!!

MISS ME!!! =)))))

Secret is out! =))

2010-03-18T23:36:00.004+08:00

Isn't she adorable??

HEY PEEPS! =)) just felt like blogging again.

nothing much happened tday.

planned to chill at hunny's place...

but when i woke up, (which is ard 1pm i think. -.-)

hunny called in saying he wanted to meet his old buddy at Tanjong Pagar.

so i just tag along.

firstly, wanted to meet hunny at 3pm under my blk.

but, while i'm almost ready at ard 2.45pm, i called him.

and his voice was seriously damn tired.

he said he wanted to meet his old buddy tmw...

then i kept whining...... =))

so yea, it was raining heavily.

so i went over to his place and waited for him to get ready.

he said i look sweet tday.. *blushing*

thx hunny!! =))

so headed down to Tanjong Pagar. met his old buddy.

then headed down to Vivo City for awhile.

by then it was 6pm.

Both of us, were seriously HUNGRY!

i realised for this few days, i've not been eating properly. -.-

so we ate at banquet, he ate Laksa and i ate Prawn noodle...

BOTH SEDAAAPP!!!! =DD

then we just walk2 ard Vivo City. look at the sights...

i totally frgot smeone worked there.

i saw his friends...

didnt expect them to recognize my face, coz i didnt recognize any...

but nvm, Hunny was there.

he said, "come, im here..."

i was like AWWW!!!! how sweet is he...

I LOVE YOU, Muhammad Farhan Bin Fhaidil!

woohooo!!! secret's out!

i'm back tgether with him ppl!!

hehe... sorry i hid it for so long.

hunny didnt let me mention to anybody.

OUH YA!!! if u're wondering why i put the pic of a kitten up there,

it's coz it's super damn f-ing CUTE!

=))

and also, coz smebdy said...

that my face without make up, looks prettier, and looks like a cat....

awww.... haha!! and tht smebdy is Dino!!

hahaha!! UNBELIEVABLE!

oh ya, i forgot to wish u,

HAPPY BELATED 1 MONTHSARY!

hope korg last long kayy??? =))

InsyaAllah we go Pulau Ubin next month kayy???

ok that's it for now... i wanna watch ANTM!!!!

Petite season Okayy!! let me remind u that!!! =))

Dun look down on us!

k MISS ME!!!! =DDD

Fully recovered! =))

2010-03-17T19:12:00.004+08:00

wonder why i fell in love with this pic...

Hey peeps!! =))
i'm sorry for not updating for awhile...
But reasons are coz my lappy fell ill...
i just fetched her off from Alexandra Technopark.
it's all well now... =))
come and visit if u want to... -.-
k stop merepek-ing girl!
So, i had a hell of a time this week... i seriously dnnoe where to start...
hmm... i only remember the awesome and latest times i spent.. so if i missed out any, im sorry..
firstly, went swimming with Hunny's family! =))
it was kinda last minute.
so yea, met Hunny at Al-Ameen with his bestie, Dino...
then headed to his place to chill fr a while.
then headed to KFC and Teh Tarik.
bought our meals to de swimming complex.
once we reached there, Hunny and Adi started eating.
-.- ppl swim then eat, they all eat then swim.
because of them we also eat. hahahahaha!!! XD
then went swimming... and all that la...
oh ya, we reached there at ard 6pm...
so swim till ard 9pm... then washed up...
and headed down to civic's macdonald. had a few brownies and McCafes...
that's one of it...
the other one was to go cycling with Hunny, Linda and Saiful.
but didnt manage to do it... so decided to go bowling...
but then, full house... -.-
so we decided to watch a movie..
we watched Green Zone...
hell of a war movie!! but i love the storyline!! =))
then we had our dinner at Pasir Ris, we had Burger King...
then just chilled there till ard 8.45...
such a sweet romantic night...!!
I LOVED IT! =))
then headed home...
well, that's all for now... =))
now watching Glee!!! (Y)
BYE!!
MISS ME!!! =))

Exhausted!

2010-03-05T23:33:00.003+08:00

just felt like putting this... coz i look cute... hurhur... ^_^

Hey there!
soo many stories to say. But i'll just cut everything short. Coz i wanna shower! =))
i actually just came back from my silat training...
so yea am kinda smelly + tired. But really feel like blogging...
so i better do it before i change my mind.
So upcoming plans will be:
-take my passport
-repair my crazy lappy -.-
-Overnight
-Outing with crazy bunch of EXC6
-BFFLs' chalet

So, past few days has been great for me...
from spending time with Mia to going out with Dear Farhan...
haha... funny u knw! Dear Farhan...
coz i just watched Dear John! =))
k lame i knw... -.-
So, watched it with Linda, Saiful and Dear Farhan... (just cant stop laughing abt the DEAR)
-.-
really had fun la seyy! if u wnna knw details, go to Linda's blog.
i lazy wanna story telling... HAHA!
But overall, i did have fun!
i remembered me and Farhan dared the other two to do somethings..
which comes to saiful's revenge to me just now.
So we kinda had a friendly fight.
but got this one time,
i LITERALLY terkejut beruk...
HAHAH!! pathetic. nvr had that kinda moment before...
-.-
so, before training, spent time with linda and mia..
accompanied linda for a haircut.
then chill at mia's crib.
then they wanted to come down for training.
so WOOO!! =PP
THX KORG!! SAYAAAANG KORG! hurhur...
so ive been thinking abt this one thing.
i dnnoe la. it's been bothering me abit.
but nobody knws abt it.
it's best for me to keep it for my own knwing.
just may wanna say this.
u've changed so much.
maybe due to me.
i always have this dream, whereby we went to our separate ways..
it's saddening and heartbreaking.
but i hope and really do hope that it will nvr turn out that way.
coz no matter how bad things turned out to be,
u do mean something in my heart.
and nvr would i wnna lose u...
sometimes it hurts just to realise that we nvr do what we used to.
but yea, ppl change.
i change too... i know.
and im sorry...

ok, i wnna shower now!!
WEEE.... ^_^ hurhur..
MISS ME! =))

Party!!! =))

2010-02-26T02:46:00.005+08:00

Just fascinated by the COLOUR! ♥♥♥

So Maths was over, it sux big time..!

Followed by Biochemical Science...

it was great to me. Coz i've been failing it.

and nw i really felt confident doing the paper. ^^

then OC was done... so now it's time to PARTY!

hahaha!!! XD

OC my favourite seyy... but too bad... it was kinda difficult though....

So today's plan was actually to go out with "someone".

the plan was to go Hort Park then to Henderson Waves and all.

then he go sleep... alamak!! haha...

but nvm, i understand... u didnt sleep at work last night..

so decided to just chill with dear BFFL, Mia... =))

So here i am now with her at RP... just hanging out..

Chilling with our lappy and also Honeydew milkshake! ^_^

For tmw's plan, is gonna be Dear John-ing!! hahaha!!

it's a double date thingy... *looks at smebdy*

Me with "someone" and and Linda and Saiful!!!

WOO!!! hahaha!!!

=))

guess gonna end here...

wanna snap some shots... hehs...

Miss Me!! ^_^

Glad we had that talk

2010-02-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps! Today maths paper just sux big time.

I seriously got no confident that i wont stayback... 0.O

It's like DAMN difficult kayy!!

i rmmber looking ard the exam hall coz i cnnt do the paper..

and like i see alot of scratching heads and given up faces... hurhur...

funny sight...!! :P

So today also, had a small argument with my clique.

I'm so glad we talked things out.

Im sorry to all of u if ive made any mistakes.

But especially to u, I'm sorry...

so glad u forgave me... =))

hope things go smoothly btwn us!

and and this friendship is treasured very much to me!

Hope we stick together no matter what...

and like what khai said,

till we get married...

hurhur...

kayy... till here...

somebdy also bad mood now..

Need to be there for him..

=))

toodles!! ^^

MISS ME!!! ^_^

thx alot!

2010-02-22T22:53:00.002+08:00

thx eh! thx a whole lot for spoiling my mood...

tmw is exams okayy! so i got no mood to study.

Again i wnna say, if ure not happy with me, approach me and talk.

u told me once before, the fact that u cant study with MY face around...

It created a huge impact to me okayy!

but i did not ever get that to u.

kept it to myself.

but u on the other hand, had a bad day.

yes i can see tht. tried to cheer u up.

but no, u took that as an insult. so be it. im sorry for tht.

BUT there is no need for u to push all ur BAD DAY to us okayy.

so what, if u have a BAD DAY, u gonna bring it to werk isit?

Ohya. btwn all of us, ure the one werking.

u should be mature enough to knw this fact.

so pls, think back.

im not trying to worsen ur day.

but u TOTALLY spoilt mine.

take care.

and, HAPPY MUGGING! ^^

While waiting for a call...

2010-02-21T00:33:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps! =))
Just felt like blogging...
I know what i said at the previous post.
Abt going missing coz need to mug.
But now i just really felt like blogging... =D
Now I'm kinda waiting for someone's call.
That person currently eating... -.-
So yesterday i mugged the whole day! =))
Not really la. But mugged with Linda and Dan frm noon till about 3.30pm.
Coz she wanna watch movie with her friend.
Then both of them left me alone at Cafe Galilee.
Oh and btw, cookies and creams moo super nice!!
Taste like McFlurry just the way i like it, Melted. HAHA!
then met ifah and chill awhile. WE HUNGRY SEYY!!
thx to Linda lorr... haha! ask us to wait for her...
so we wait... then went back to library to mug again.
Ifah taught me maths. sorry babe if i make u stress...
then went to fetch my brother frm silat.
ohya, smebdy said i look pretty... ^^
then reach home and start mugging again... -.-
MATHS MATHS MATHS!! differentiation. integration. and more!!! =___="
since im abit slow. i really suffered alot at home.
trying to figure out the sums and all....
But then someone txt me...
so long i nvr talk/chat/webcam and all la with him...
thought he forgotten abt me. BUT no... he remember! :D
then we webcam awhile.
He's like a big bro to me. ^_^
really happy he was there that night.
I ask so many qns seyy. But when he wnna answer only,
i figure out the answer already. -___-
anyway, if u're reading this, THANK YOU!
oh oh. and i still rmmber your palm to palm and form a big SMILE.
=))
ok then till here.
That person call me already...
TOODLES!
MISS ME!! =))

Plain thoughts

2010-02-17T22:23:00.004+08:00

So many things going thru my mind...

Family,

Studies,

Friends,

And Alot More!!!

-.-

So firstly, about Myself...

hmm... i'm just too stress out with life now. -.-

Exams are just a week away.

And my confidence level is very low!

Wonder whether i can progress to Year 2 which I'm really looking forward to.

Well, I'm going to be missing soon.

Gonna be busy mugging my ass off... ^_^

So this is my last post before the "Mugging session".

And And, someone told me, and never fail to tell me,

"Susah sekarang, senang kemudian..."

Always will bear that in mind... ^_^

So, next one that really bothers me is this guy here...

HAHA!!! kk i knw la lame...

haha!! -.-

But then people around me who knows about what's happening in my life,

keep on telling me...

"Just leave him babe. Find a better one... You deserve a better guy who can take GOOD care of you... Don't waste your youth..."

So, what's bothering me is that, I'm afraid of hurting him.

Though he had hurt me too many times...

HAIYO!!!

Forget it... Move on to the next thing in mind...

This gentleman here...

Never fail to put a smile on my face...

Shared too many ups and downs with him...

Since the day i got to know him...

Sure he did hurt me alot... Same goes to me, hurt him alot too...

But though we went through all of this...

Got separated SO many times,

But still, till now can't seem to let go of him...

Can't seem to forget him...

And I'm very glad that he's back in my life...

^_^

OK stop thinking babe!

Time to study... i mean not now. but tomorrow.. ^_^

Now gotta call someone, he's working tomorrow...

so cannot keep him waiting...

So till next time...

Toodles!!!

MISS ME!!! ^_^

Great day spent! ^^

2010-02-16T00:00:00.002+08:00

Hello!!! sorry to go missing for sometime...

too busy studying i guess... (YA RIGHT!!!)

So yea, i kinda just came bck... frm town.

haha!! Linda la, ajak me go shopping.

kk, long story but i try to cut it short kayy??

so tday planned to jz accompany Linda to shop.

At 1.30pm, we plan time to meet up and place la...

so firstly, plan, 3pm at AMK platform.

but then. me, mentel sgt. go karaoke till 2.30pm. HAHAHA!

then i call Linda, say i late lor. then she say kk nvm.

she also just strt to get ready.

so yeah, i choose what to wear close to an hour...!!! stress seyy!! haha!!

then kept calling her ask her abt wht she wear and all la...

bole jdik gile seyy! ask Izrul la... my face aftr choosing... HAHA!

then asked Izrul whether i look okayy.. and my sweet hunny said, Ok!

so i smiled. then i ask him la, tk klua?

then he like sad seyy... he said Faris nvr pick up his call...

so i ajak him la.. go out with us. then he dun wan.

so nvm lor. i ajak already what.

ksian scandal aku ni... :P

k so bck to Linda, i met her at about 4pm.

first plan to walk ard Orchard.

when we reach only, wahh!!! NO shop seyy!!!!

Super pissed! :P

so headed to City Hall and walk ard Marina Square.

then wanna catch a movie. but all at 10pm. and all boring movies..

so decided to eat at Burger king.

Linda got double swiss and i got rendang.

Thats the spot tht make us kutuk org. made me i mean.

then kutuk2.... all the way till we were chilling at esplanade.

snapped some photos... and kutuk ppl sme mre! haha!

but then got this grp of guys. GATAL!! keep calling us. then when we turn, just smile.

like WTH!! Get a life!!!

so got this 2 guys sitting near us.

they were foreigners and and SUPER CUTE!! haha!!!

frm the strt when they sat, we were like trying to listen to their convo seyy...

trying to figure out what language they talking.

bt too bad...

ohya!!! got one time, when Linda was posing for the camera, got a passerby say,

"act cute!" HAHAHAHAHA!!! i was like ROFLMAO!

then Linda was pissed lorr... haha!!

then talk2... and headed to raffles. thought wanna go Ben&Jerry.

but tk jdik. cz i gatal, wanna go river island.

and got tights and a PINK tank top!!! ^^

so at the end of the day, Linda bought 0 items. and i bought 2 items.

And i spent 50bucks in total!

so yea, thx eh Linda!!!!!! HAHAH!!!

had alot of fun though... ^^

k till here... im waiting for smeone to answer fire call... -.-

take care! Miss me!

^_^

Releasing stress with clique!

2010-02-10T00:00:00.007+08:00

HEY!!! first things first...
to YOU! who hates me so much, STOP VISITING MY BLOG!
Just fuck off! no need to dirty my blog!
And 1 thing i wnna say to u.
Just face reality, u are not a man!
dun dare face me, A GIRL, and just talk things straight at my face.
But writing names such as ***** and passerby??
forget it la!

k so stop this shit.
so tday we went back to school.
though we have no school today, hehe... nk blaja!! =))
kk then we studied. and took a break.
hehe,,,
and then,,,, CAMWHORING SESSION!
so actually this post is just to publish the pics we took.
=))))
here it goes... ENJOY!
and ya, i wanna talk to my special someone now..
toodles! MISS ME!!! =))

So many things happening

2010-02-06T20:28:00.005+08:00

Trust is a BIG word.

So ppl say, with no trust, there's no love.

and also, it's easy to lose someone's trust.

But is VERY difficult to gain that trust back.

So went through ALOT this week.

Got to know ALOT this week.

Missed ALOT of lessons this week.

Cried ALOT this week.

Got angry ALOT this week.

And did all the negative things ALOT this week.

So yea,

if u wnna play this game with me, I'll play along.

Trying to make a fool out of me huh?

Lying to me all u want huh?

Let's just see who is the bigger fool aites?

=))

ok so despite all this tough moments...

i did enjoyed myself..! =D

did my eyebrow. with linda and ifah. hees. linda was so funny la cn?

then like ya, dnnoe why im this dumb.

after what he did, still cn treat him to Seoul Garden.

but nvm, let's make this the last time huh? =))

so yea, me, ifah, cun and peybu.

we ate lunch at Seoul Garden.

But the most FUN part this week is

EVG 10th Anniversary! =))

got to meet my dear darling BFFLs!

got to meet my EXC6!

got to meet my old pals and teachers!

Full strength for BFFLs!

Aisyah, Nutt, Yayat, Mia, Nifa! =))

but then, my mood wasnt there.

thx to someone. hmph.

Wahh!! best per mataer aku tk klua dgn aku uh.

k lah. klua dgn pmpan yg aku baru knal la.

tapi blg mataer yg pmpan tu kwn lame.

BEST PER!! =DD

so nvm, decided to give him chance.

by asking him qns tht make him lead to the truth.

but ya, as usual, lies get difficult.

he decided not to tell the truth and carry on lying.

so i decided to play another game.

let's be at fault for smething. and make him feel guilty.

but no, he decided to be mad at me. and not feel guilty.

The least is tht, he heard my cnfession before anyone told him.

and he heard it frm MY mouth.

not like wht he did.

it was like almost a month ago. and i heard it frm my frens who knew a close to a month ago.

hw hurtful is tht. still waiting to hear it frm ur mouth!

so like ya, let's just wait and see huh? =D

ok currently watching Mr and Mrs Smith. haha!

LOVE IT!

so, i'd better end here.

MISS ME! =))

Blast of a time

2010-02-02T19:58:00.002+08:00

Hello! finally i got afew minutes to update this blog.

so ya, this wk was quite a blast. so many things to d0..

on satrday, my fmily went over to granny's place...

and ya, as usual, go there only, EAT!!! hahaha! and get a few bucks!! WOOOHOOO!!! =DD

so then Sunday was planned out to be a day to STUDY!

but then, dear linda asked me to accompany her to her bestie's sister's birthday party.

so, tagged along. and we got lost. -____-"

so we were supposed to be at the other end of the neighbourhood....

ALAMAK!! and its FREAKING HOT!

bt yea, we talk2 tht we didnt realise the fact tht we reach the place already.

hahaha!

so monday, nothing much.

just went to sch, maths tutorial SUCKS!

then slack, and headed for OC tutorial and lab.

we made nylon for OC lab!

and guess how long was ours!!!

it's 5.7m!!! WOOHOO!!!

haha...!!

then today was hilarious... laughed so many times with the babes and hunks...

khai!! pekak pe!! korek telinga la!! ahahaha!!

ppl say red bull... he heard konek bu... was like WHAT??!!

then hamka wnna say double cheeseburger, become dabbie cheeseburger...

and hatta got a phobia... which is me!! haha!!

and and hatta cnfident!!! he thought we havnt watch phobia2...

then he said, " eh!! aku da tgk phobia2!!"

then i said, " so? kite da lame da tgk... pt wayang..."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok dah. tu je....

and ya, cnt wait to meet my beloved BFFLs and EXC6!!!

till here..!!! toodles!!

MISS ME!!! =)))

ohya! sme photos taken during the exhibition!! we got B+ for poster and B for model! =)

I LOVE BEING SHORT!!!!! =))

2010-01-29T01:14:00.003+08:00

isnt she just BEAUTIFUL???!!!

GORGEOUS!!

Hello everyone! =))

just finished watching America's Next Top Model-cycle 13, PETITE season!

and FYI, petite means short.

so stop criticizing shorties! we can model okayy!!! =))

so ya, kinda sad my fav ones didnt win.

but nvm, u're gorgeous! im referring to Erin okayy ppl! =D

she's just so beautiful la! im like admiring her right nw.

i love her lips!! =))

so, today we had our exhibition.

im too sleepy to elaborate mre. sorry...

but im gonna say this:

thx babes! for doing what we did. am very proud of us!

and to hamka, ACTION! SHOW OFF!! =))

so aftr the exhibition, headed to wdlnd to meet mia.

at frst ew didnt knw wht to do.

till smebdy was saying abt buying dress *looks at ashraf*

so i finally bought smething blue.

actually wanted white. bt im so nt meant for white.

coz i dnnoe hw to take care of it. hehs...

so ya, waited for smeone...

coz he wanted to go home with me...

and like when i met him, he was like him...

ahaha!! ape aku mepek ni? *yawning*

so ya, walked home with ashraf...

wait, let me remind u, i was at wdlands heading home at marsiling...

With my heels on!!

haha! great practice for working life huh? =))

so nw i think im going to bed.

there's just an hour of school tmw...

SO MALAS TO GO!

bt, demi BCS, i'm going!!!

so ya, night ppl! =))

MISS ME!!!!=))

Busy Busy Week

2010-01-23T22:09:00.007+08:00

Hey peeps! So sorry for not updating for so long!!
I’ve been very busy… with sempro2!
And ya, I don’t know why. Whenever I wear formally, people will say this:

Farr! You look so bitchy and like naughty office.

Thx to Ganesh lorr, the fire starter.

So today is very slacky but tiring day for me...But im very satisfied + happy too. hurhur...

coz me and my babes managed to find the stuff needed for our model!

and it's just left with making the model! hurhur...

though last min, we nvr fail to give a good result. =))

so presentation wise, it was great!though we finished earlier than expected. =.=

we were given 15 min to present, no more and no less...but we were fast. Darn it. but nvm.

we did well.and ya, it's just a few marks gone. im so proud of us! =))

tmw will be making the model.

Hope cn finish before 1159pm of 24Jan2010. =))

so tday, firstly when i woke up at abt 11am, smebdy greeted me very well! ^_^

with a sweet msg... =))

and then txted linda to cnfirm time and place meeting for sempro2 model making.

so she said at 1.30pm at my place.and it was 12noon at tht point of time.

so ya, i still layed lazily on bed. text-ing peybu... ^_^

suddenly time flies super fast! =.=

it's 1pm and linda txt me saying she just went out of her house.

and i haven't kmas my rm, mandi and like nothing is done.

so i told her to dilly dally...

then when she was at my doorstep, i just finish kmas-ing my rm.

and ya, haven't mandi yet.=.=

and i opened the door, saying "sorry aku blm mandi. tpi aku wangi tau!"

then linda was like "yelah2 farr..."

so then i bathe and we headed down to causeway point.

then at 6.30pm linda had to go off.

but she called her house, and had 30 mre min to spare.

so we head down pasar mlm and bought tako yaki!

had been wanting that!! =))

then we took the train and i head off to yishun to meet ifah.

haha, 2 dates...! ^_^

so bought the final things needed and headed home.

and on the bus, there's this hawtie...!! ^__^

and was txt-ing with linda.

she was telling me abt the choc cake she's having..

GRR!!! I WANT!!!

then i was like an idiot seyy, smiling alone in the bus. =.=

hmm... peybu just text me!!

hehs...!and im chatting with my babe.

Hope whatever is happening nw disappears k babe?

im always here to cheer u up every single day! =))

and to my hunny who wanna read my blog so bad, muke maintain kalau mendak tu.. HAHAHA!!!

k lah, blog again soon! =))

here are some pics taken during the presentation day! =))

cheeky farr ^_^

smebdy say, NAUGHTY OFFICE! =.=

THE HAWT BABES of C1 =))

I swear this was candid! ppl passin by smemore!

we look so pretty!

BEAUTIFUL!

they never fail to make my day! ^_^

trying to be tall... =.=

he's trying to be short here. ^_^

and now, he's proposing. =.=

this is SO NICE! ^_^

Better kiss it! =DD

Just felt like blogging this

2010-01-16T15:15:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps. Guess I’m blogging for a reason here.

Well, was arranging my folders in my lappy.
Scared that I’ll lose any and can’t find it. =.=
So ya, I came across a folder, it was memories I kept accidentally.
So ya, I collected all the pics I had with this person. It was a long time ago.
And coincidently, I’m listening to ‘we belong together-Mariah Carey’.
So ya, all the memories just flashed back into my head.
I wonder why tears are rolling down my cheeks.
But, leave the past behind. I wanna carry on living my life.
I’ve made a lot of mistakes in life.
I’ve hurt a lot of people.
But, never will I let any of these to pull me down.
Coz, no matter how tough it is, I’m gonna be stronger to face the next one.
Farr is not that farr that u know before. *kening up down*
And ya, just a lil reminder,
Nobody messes with my BFFLs! =))
Nobody messes with my babes! =))
And nobody messes with my hunks! =))
So ya, to the person who I believe need to be sabar now,
I hope things will go smoothly for u, coz I know how deep your love for him is.
Gonna try my best to cheer u up every now and then.
Selagi aku hidup, tidak ada kawan2 ku yg boleh bersedihan. =))
CEHH!!! Farr seyy! =.=
And ya, I failed my maths and biochem. But passed my organic chem.
So ya, gotta buck up babe! And stop fooling around! STUDY!
Hmm, guess I gotta end here. =))
Going to sleep now. =))
MISS ME! =))

Happy =))

2010-01-10T22:34:00.008+08:00

Being Happy is all i wanna be.

so sorry i can't update on what happen last wk.

am very busy with school assignments.

well, at least i got some photos!

well, nothing much i wanna say.

tday was a boring day.

planned to finish semestral project's poster by tday.

planned to meet my babes to do that.

bt well, guess we were lazy + we knw tht slim chances it will be cmplete if we met up.

so ya, decided to do it at our respective homes.

and just discuss online. MSN really helps in that kinda situation.

so ya, struggled abit with the photos.

bt as we were searching, my migrane came.

and i was really pissed coz it came at the wrong time.

so i decided to take a break and take a nap.

sry ifah, left u alone. coz linda also had migranes. so she also got her rest.

then i woke up ard 5pm i think.

and ya, cntinued with the poster.

im proud to announce i found the background and updated everything tht ifah did.

and then send it bck to her for her to kinda add sme more.

Fuuh!! farr sey!! i knw it's =.=", bt it's a success for me! =))

ok, im tired nw. wnna sleep.

so while im sleeping. u guys cn enjoy the pics below! hehs. =))

MISS ME! =))

Random Pose

me and Ella! =.="

Ella! (kakak ifah, Alya)

baek pe! =))

ifah

dnnoe how to pose, seriously

she wanted to act like she's carrying the artwork

the escalator was nvr ending! look at hw small i am!

At Alya's wrkplace, sempat try aju. hehe.

otw home, and linda wanted to see her hair colour. =)) NICE KN!!

them with their hoods

mcm tgh winter plak. =.="

nk malu2 konon. HMPH!

the 3 babes. =))

Sweet nye!! =))

them =))

ape je peybu ni

ade je yg nk pose tau

Aww... =))

OMG! i look so fat! =___=

nvr will i choose either. coz great things come in pairs. =))

Lawa kn!! =))

Reflections much!

2010-01-07T22:04:00.004+08:00

Hello peeps! im finally free to blog. Actually no, got sem pro to finish. bt yea, need to relax!

and im feeling so lost and alone now.

actually it's just a feeling la. i still have what i nrmally have.

well, trying to chill now. and ya, release everything here. =))

so who am i? just a fren?just someone u call a girlfren?

i waited for ur text msgs. i waited for ur calls.

bt it seems like u dun care. maybe coz u're busy.

fine, i was warned abt ur busy schedule. bt could u at least make an effort?

i've been thru this situation again and again.

is this karma? i've nvr done these things to anyone before. hw could it be?

well, nvm. when im kind, ppl step over my head.

thinking that im ok with it. bt hell no!

be it in relationships and friendships, this kinda things happen.

bt nvm, im used to it. and like what someone once told me and keeps reminding me,

this kinda things should not pull me down but should make me stronger. =))

so now im just reflecting on everything happening and had happened.

u cme for me for it. walk away when it's nt needed.

who am i nw? who am i bck then?

i dun wnna have a say in anything abt this now.

whatever that i borrowed u, i dun expect back.

bt like what my mum always remind me,

this thing, we cn nvr have a say, especially when it has reached a limit where they cn nvr promise to return.

if u wanna return it slowly like u promised, i dn mind. bt pls shw me something.

so it's btwn u and God.

nwadays i just feel like i lost everything wonderful that i once had.

mybe that's for letting ppl take control of me before.

and that's for me being too soft spoken.

dun wnna stand up for my own right.

nw i've lost so many things. bt nvr will i regret whatever i did.

coz i wont repeat what i did wrong. =))

and ya, i'd just pray for their happiness coz i believe in karma.

so all the best ppl who used me before, who steps over me.

especially the one who is sweet talker motherfucker.

and the one who changed for me and nw is bck where he strted and blamed me for evrything.

speaking of which,

i really wnna say it here. a big lesson learnt for me.

and it's frm my mum some more.

so she told me,

nvr to even pandang a guy (be it as a fren or boyfren),

who asks a girl for money (be it just once or many times)

because, these guys are the ones, who will be hurting their wives for money.

and will be loving their wives because of money.

so girls out there, pls. learn this by heart.

coz i've lost lots to a guy, just A GUY.

and to think of it again, it's a big waste coz i cn go shopping with the money,

and also, he was the one wrking and im the one schooling.

so hell yea! im happy i broke up with u.

and my mum even said, if she knew abt this before, she nvr would have let u enter our house.

so yea, have a great life!

well, these days, i'm so glad my mates are there.

they cheer me up each day without fail. frm early in the morning till late in the evenings.

even at night sometimes, they will make me laugh and laugh.

gosh, hw blessed am i? having such frens.

i dnnoe how im living my poly life now without their presence.

ohya! if im free again tmw, i'll blog again abt things done this week. =))

hmm, nt frgetting the BFFLs i have.

nt that u are frgotten.

it's the quality tht counts, nt quantity.

meaning: it's hw much u mean to me in my heart, nt hw much u mean to me thru whatever i write down anywhere.

u're still here in my heart where it has always been.

so guess i better head back to help ifah on sempro,

and finish more of my sempro final presentation ppt slides. =))

so,

MISS ME! =))

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010!

2010-01-01T18:35:00.005+08:00

Happy New Year!
Well, have been thinking through everything that happened in 2009.
And hell yea, so many things happened.
Be it major or minor, be it happy or saddening.
All of it will not be forgotten.
For those whom I’ve hurt or made any mistakes, really hope u forgive me.
It’s a new year, let’s start a new chapter together. We forgive and forget. Start over.

To my beloved family.
Especially to my parents, I’ll try my hardest to make u proud.
My other siblings, Study hard kay!!
The twins: next year PSLE, study hard. Make mama n papa proud.
Raihan: Secondary already, stop fooling ard. Try to get frm NA to Exp.
Abg: I’m so jealous u’re taking driving lessons now. HMPH! K lame. =.=

To my BFFLs, really miss u damn much. Though this holiday we couldn’t meet, I’m sure we won’t forget each other, right? =))
Hope this strong friendship never ends. After all that we’ve faced together.
Nadhirah, Aisyah, Irnifa, Roshazmira and Hidayat. My beloved BFFLs.

To my babes, Haslinda and Latifah, I knw we’ve just met this year.
That’s why I’m thankful to have met u babes.
Hope our friendship nvr ends. =))
And keep that hot and sexy memories of ours aites. =))

To my hunks, Hamka, Khairul, Hatta and Ramdan, thx for being there for me.
Stay the way u always be everyday. And dun paitao ppl dan! =))

Lastly, to my beloved EXC6, all 14 of u.
Timothy, Eileen, ZhiQi, Ronald, John, Kathy, Philoe,
Daryan, Haleem, Fana, Angeline, Jing Peng, Li Zhen.
I’m so sorry I could’t come down for the chalet.
Sprained my foot. And needed to rest at home. Hope u guys had fun though.
And, hope this strong bond we had always had from the start will never end.
From trashing out sessions, to planning, to organizing, to carrying out, to camps,
to praying hard together, to stepping down and now to meet-ups.
I really treasure u guys. Though we don’t share problems.
Which had been a question mark to some of us.
Why we don’t share our problems with each other, but we mean so much.
Hmm… but nvm. I still love u!

But most importantly, to all,
Happy New Year.
Hope 2010 will bring a better future to all. =))

Wait, haven’t finish la!
My resolutions! I haven’t list them down la! Hurhur…
So here it goes.
» Look for a part-time job
» Stop asking money from parents
» Stop skipping lessons =))
» Improve in studies
» Get Mr RIGHT
» Make my parents proud
» Be a better person
Ok done. Haha! So many, so easy, yet so difficult to fulfil.
Let’s hope I get to fulfil these resolutions of mine. =))
Guess I better end now, ppl get bored reading huh?
Yea, who cares!! Think I care?? Hurhur.
So ya, love urself before u love others. =))
MISS ME ! =)))
♥♥♥♥

Happy Birthday Mama! ♥♥

2010-01-01T16:49:00.005+08:00

♥Mama and Me♥

Cute kan Mama ku!! ♥

Hello peeps! It’s 010110! What a nice date!
Well, since it’s the start of a new year, of course it’s also my beloved mama’s birthday!
So, Happy Birthday Mama!! =)))
I know I’ve done a lot of mistakes.
I know I’ve made u upset, disappointed, angry, mad and everything la!
I know I’ve made u cry a few times.
I know I’m not the kind of daughter any mums would wanna have.
But no matter what, I still respect u as my mama, still love u as my mama.
Though I don’t show it. Though I don’t say it.
You’re always here, in my heart. You’re always my mama that I love since young.
I’m sorry for everything wrong I had done to u.
I’m very grateful that God still allow me to hug u everyday.
Grateful that you’re still around to scold me, to teach me and to nag at me. =))
So, here I am, as a daughter, wishing u a happy birthday!
Sorry I didn’t get u anything. I’m out of cash. =PP
And I promise u, that one day, I’ll bring u out to dinner, with the whole family, my treat. =)
I’ll always pray for your health, wealth and happiness. =))
Love u so much Mama! MUUAACKZ!!! ♥♥

Specially green coz it's Mama's fav colour! =))

Happy Birthday Mama!! ♥

Being cacat

2009-12-30T15:23:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps! I’m back again and I’m cacat now…
Well, last Sunday, my silat grp got an invitation to perform for a wedding.
And ya, there were 2 other grps.

And so they open the gelanggang and begins the show.
It was fun la cn!! I mean after all the years I went missing. And finally back.
So, it started out quite boring, coz ya, it was still early.
After lunch break, everything starts heating up.
And tok asked me to fight with saiful(a tall dude let me remind u).
So we went into the gelanggang and buka our bunge2…
Then ya, it’s a friendly fight though.

So we did laugh and for me, I think I was too evil to him.
Haha. Well, and I got my punishment.
During the friendly fight, I landed wrongly and KKKRRRRAACCKKK! My foot got a big hump.
And till now, which is a Wednesday, 30 December, im still walking like a cacat. Haha.
So ya, after the show, I met up Mia as she was at pasir ris also.
But the funny thing was that her foot hurts coz of her heels. And mine got injured.
So imagine 2 girls walking like cacat ppl. Haha!!
And ya, I cnt tahan the pain. So decided to get ankle guard at causeway point.
After that headed home.

well, stayed home after that the whole of monday.

and tuesday i had to go out. can't stand it.
haha. well, didnt go anywhere. just applied for a job. hope i get it. *fingers crossed*

so after that met up with baby linda. baby ifah couldnt join us.

hope u're ok baby! =))

so did only part of the poster. which i think is just 5%. HAHA!

so did the poster with haikal. =))

and then met up with izrul, his cuzzie and shahfiq.

and ya, headed to civic to lepak awhile.

and wat's wrong with guys these days??

so emo!! they were listening to love songs la! haha!

and i was like krik krik krik. =PP

then ya headed home after that.

and i just cant stand them. especially calling me catcat and cacat and all that la.

haha. but ya, i had fun! =))
guess im finishing my post now.

and ya,

miss me! =))

Life is a bitch. Just live with it!

2009-12-26T20:38:00.003+08:00

Hello again! I so hate my life now. Everything is just so complicated.

Am I making my own life complicated? I don’t think so.

Well, I thought hard about being in love. But, didn’t expect this to happen.

I mean you’re not officially single and you’re going out with me? WTH??

Look, my heart is not a play toy. Stop doing whatever you’re doing!

She told me she doesn’t even know your relationship status. WTF!

And here you’re trying to be in a relationship with me. Haiz.

Do I look like a dumbass??

I can’t stop thinking about her. I feel sorry for her. She can’t meet u, can’t contact u.

and here, you are working, in Singapore but there’s no need for you to get another one.

She’s there waiting for you. Hoping for you, waiting for a call from u, at least.

Well, I’m sorry if I spoilt anything. Tonight, I’m going to talk about this.

You better confess everything. You promised me not to hide anything.

And what the hell is this??!!! Haiz. I’ve had enough shit from you!

Let’s cut about this freak. Change subject now!!

So, today was not bad. I kinda love the weather. But hate it too.

Well, firstly, I woke up with a phone call from Yan. Hmm. I don’t know the purpose.

But ya, he kinda started my day well. After the tears I shed from last night.

And ya, thx ifah for being there last night, really appreciate it.

Well, let’s talk about yesterday! I mean the webcam session I had with ifah. Super random! Haha! Purpose is to show the rantai I got from Peybu.

Then, it dragged on and on.

Till one time, I was explaining to my adek2 about peybu and all.

Ifah was laughing at the other side. Haha. I was embarrassed a min there.

Haha! *face turning red hot*

so ya, ifah witnessed every of my expressions.

And she just said, be strong girl.

Crying doesn’t mean a loss in a battle. But just letting out everything.

And ya, I felt better. I mean, u know me. I don’t breakdown and not get back up instantly. =))

So, today silat training was AWESOME!

It’s like not a training. We trained just to prepare for tomorrow.

Well, we had to fight with each other or even other people.

I’m so excited and nervous!

Haha! I’m small ok, so can feel this way. =PP

and ya, I melatah every single time somebody attacks me and started jumping around.

Haha! How to fight if like that?

Then, well, decided to meet ifah after her work.

Met up at marsiling stn platform and headed to civic centre’s starbucks.

Well, favourite hang out place for the babes. =))

it’s like the best place to chill. Got air-con, but not too cold, quiet and ya, comfortable! =))

I got my choc chip cream and she got her java chip. The normal drinks. =)) and we talk la.

I almost broke down into tears. But never will I shed anymore tears for this kinda person. =)) so, after the drink, we headed to causeway point and just window shopped.

Haha. And how I wish linda was there.

We just got to metro and only god knows how many comments we’ve given on just shoes.

Gosh! So makcik2 lah! =PP

So we did drop by Watson coz I wanted to look at the make up set, mine is finishing! =PP

and ifah wanted to look for nail polish remover.

And we commented on the hair dyes ( abt 15 mins I think) then to the shampoo section where the hair creams are at and all. (abt 25 mins I think)

so long seyy at Watson, just commenting on the products. Haha!

Then when we came out of the shop.

Someone confession session with me….!! I was laughing my ass off la seyy! It’s like WOW!!! Haha!!! Then ya, went on window shopping and headed home at around 7+.
Now I’m just slacking at home. Boring!

Everybody went out seyy…!!! Hmph.

So ya, I’m loving the plurks today. Everybody seem to be plurking and ya, the nonsense stuff we plurk about.

Really very random. Frm weather to sec life.

Haha!!! And sorry BFFLs for not making tmw’s outing a reality. =((

I promise we’ll go out soon. PROMISE!!! And I miss you guys! =((

“Love is a temporary madness.

It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides.

And when it subsides you have to make a decision.

You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.

Because this is what love is.

Love is not breathlessness,

it is not excitement,

it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion.

That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away,

and this is both an art and a fortunate accident..”
-St. Augustine

Kinda got this from ifah’s blog. And I agree so much to it! =))
So that’s all for now.
MISS ME!! =))

Updates

2009-12-24T03:45:00.002+08:00

Hello again! nw i wnna blog abt what happen these few days.

so bear with me! it's gonna be a long one again. =PP

Sunday

Mama told me that we're going over to granny's place.

and she said maybe got sup tulang!

i was super excited seyy! and i didnt eat from morning till like 4pm...

saving up for the food. but then, when we reached there,

my gramps were slacking ard, sleeping and just slack la...

and there's no food. in my head was like all vulgarities.

only my peybu know what's in my head coz i let evrything out at him. =PP sorry syg!

then thought after that Papa will bring us go eat outside.

but he dropped by Seletar reservoir. very windy seyy... BEST!!! =))

then got to grab my fav, durian ice-cream with bread..! ohya, reminds me someone owe me an ice-cream!!! =)) Ben n Jerry's !!!! cookie dough!! =))

so ya, then headed home. and i was dead on bed.

till the smell of the fried chicken woke me up and i ate.

the plate was super full la cn?? hehe... HUNGRY LA!!! =DD

Monday

supposed to meet my babes to dye my hair.

then baby ifah cant make it, so i went down to baby linda's place.

at first i was alone, then 1 by 1 her cuzzins came.

i felt so alien-ish la can!!! i mean it's like their gathering and im extra.

first dye my hair dark mahogany brown. super decent face seyy.

so not me. miss my natural hair colour now...

then we went down to get food.

and we saw the liese dye. very foamy!! so they bought to dye their hair.

so reached home only, they dye lor.

i bcome baby lin's hairstylist. =))

then still got so much left. so i dye my hair again. hees. it was mocha orange.

then ya, i had to head home so i went off.

and omg la! thought baby linda was loud enough.

u shud meet the cuzzins... super kecoh la can!!

but i like la! so hype! hehe...

Tuesday

Met up with babes!!! =DDD

well, planned to meet at 1pm at sembawang stn.

planned to go to sembawang park to just chill and relax.

but early in the morning, baby ifah text me say the weather not that good.

so changed plan. which is to be planned on the spot. haha!

that's us babes. lazy to plan. all on the spot. very flexible. =))

so 1pm was pushed up to 2pm. coz wnna sleep. hehe.

then met up. and baby linda's sis tagged along.

we headed to sunplaza's KFC to eat. LAPAR! =))

then baby linda's sis headed off with her boyfie and left with the babes! =))

so since we were having this meet-up for baby ifah,

baby ifah gets to choose the place to chill.

and she wanted starbucks, which her fav spot is at civic centre.

so we headed there.

Reminder: my cramps were seriously killing me the whole way to woodlands.

and it wont go away!! DAMN! hate being a girl bcoz of this.

so, we chat and chat.

talked abt evrything under the sun. =))

let out evrything inside. and ya, really hope baby ifah feel so much better.

and then we headed our separate ways. =))

Wednesday

Cp0901 class gathering!

was so unplanned! no time to order, no time to DIY also!

so decided to head down to BBQ wholesale to get them. EASY! =PP

supposed to meet kah hui and moon at 2.30pm at Bedok.

but i reached AMK to meet baby linda at 2.30pm.

and met the two guys at 3.20pm i think. WOW right?

well, what to do? =))

and moon was freaking red la. he said he go sentosa with pretty girls.

alamak. skali got to know, he went fishing. and i went LERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

then got the food and headed down to gaya's condo.

so ya, we waited fr evrybdy and started the fire and BBQ! =))

so, they bought vodka and some beer.

gosh! moon and kah hui was so tipsy i suppose.

haha. and some hilarious parts that im not supposed to share here.

but if u wnna know, ask me! =))

so ya, then at ard 10+ close to 11, the babes had to go.

so we went off... =))

Thursday

well, havnt happen yet. but ya, planned out already.

it's the girls' day out!! =DDD

im not sure what we're gonna do but i know it's gonna be fun fun fun! =))

and ya, the babes planned to wear very pretty girls.

as in femininely.

and im still thinking to straighten my hair or to curl it.

hmm... so let me think in my dreams k? =))

i better get some rest. have been sleeping late. GOSH!

kk, eyebags forming.

haha...

take care! MISS ME! =)))

Being a bitch?

2009-12-23T03:11:00.006+08:00

The Bitch

Hey ppl! =))
well, finally i feel like blogging abt what's happening in my life.
well currently it's 0313am, and as normal, i'll reflect on what's going on.
so now, i'm thinking abt my BFFLs, mia, aisyah, nad, nifa and yayat.
Only god knows how much i miss those days our bond was super strong.
how much i miss the days where we quarreled on some small lil things.
all the days we had tgther la. when we pass ard our dishes when we eat.
now, thats not happening. saddening. tried with my poly mates but yea, no they dun want.
but nvm, really hope we go out to eat. =PP
sometimes im just sad coz we're separated.
i dun even know what's happening in ur lives.
i doubt u know what's happening in mine.
how i wish this holiday, we can meet up and just talk abt evrything under the sun.
so far, planned out is to go picnic. hope it'll be fulfilled. really looking frward to it.

ok, next is abt my school work, assignments and stuff like that.
and it's 0325am. gosh, this is so not a holiday la.
so many assignments. me and my babes still got tonnes of projects to fnish.
really hope we can finish by 5th jan. i dun wanna rush anymore.
very stressful sey! for example, tnight's class BBQ...!
and the food is still not ordered. so i have to get up early to get evrything.
GOSH! save me smebdy. lucky got peybu. he can wake me up. =))

next in my mind is my babes!
well, i know my baby don't tell me something. but i sense she's hiding smething.
nvm, i understand if u dn wanna share. but im always here for u k baby?? =))
and for my other babe, chill k hunns? mungkin ade hikmah nye die uat gitu.
WOW! so melayu!! haha. thx to peybu la. teach me words!
and ya!! he taught me one new word!! shoot! i frget! nvm, will tell korg soon! =PP
and ya, back to my babe, no worries k? ur babes always here to cheer u up.
really hope yesterday's hang out made u feel so much better.
and hope it got u off things. =))

next is my hunks. haha!!
well, i know my 9-yr-fren is hiding stuff frm me too.
pls feel free to share k? aku tk prnah smbunyi pape dri kau seyy.
and to my pink-purple-braces hunk, im here for u too.
hope u loved the birthday bash. and, da ade memory kn...!!! =PP

next is my love life..
well, it's been a bumpy one.
i mean i dun care whether u think im a bitch or not.
but this is my life. so FUCK OFF!
well, currentlly, Peybu is in my ♥ besides my BFFLs, Babes and Hunks. =.=
byk nyerr!! haha...
he's the one who has been giving me all sort of advices.
he's the one who gave me lame jokes.
he's the one who make me filled everyday without fail.
if he's not doing his show, which is in the morning and night, he'll always text me.
and he's a cookie monster!! always eating!
try going out with him..! GOSH! i can grow fat!!
well, breakfast KFC. then headed to city hall. reach only he wnna eat burger king.
so i also have to eat lor. he pakse me. ALAMAK!
then we walk2 down esplanade and just chit chat.
then headed to admiralty. and sit at carpark awhile.
then he ask for macdonald plak. i'm like, "WHAT! bu nk mkn lagi?"
then headed home and talked on the phone. and he said he wnna eat first.
and i'm like................................... *shaking head*
but nvm, he's my macho man!

and ya, his bdy FUUHHH!!! *exaggerating expression*
but seriously, he got the bod!

remind me of taylor lautner though taylor is hotter. =PP

ohya, just wanted to say this. no bad intentions but just wondering.
if someone wants a break up, and u wnna say smething sweet to him/her,
would u create ur own lines, dig out frm quotes in the internet or grab words from songs?

someone gave me this,
Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
And even in the bottom of the sea
I can still hear inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time you were telling me lies So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart
Well you can try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me,
I thought you told me
You’d never leave me

And ya, it was very sweet to me.
till i heard "Try sleeping with a broken heart" by Alicia Keys on 98.7fm.
and i was heartbroken. not that i dn appreciate it.
but better ask me hear the song and say that that is what he feels right?
i mean, i'm not dumb right???
so i was like, ya. it's the end.
and i'm sorry. i know i've hurt you.

i know to u this is a huge mistake that im making.
But, i'd rather learn it the hard way then being spoon fed.
i dun wanna be the girl who follows whatever her guy ask her to do frm A-Z.

so now, it's my family.
so many things happening. im so fucked up.
i dunnoe why, i do this wrong. do that wrong.
sit at home also wrong. go out also wrong.
then what am i suppose to do??
but i understand also, at home so many things happening.
my atok start his angin already.
wanna go hospital but got nothing wrong...
and he kept irritating my uncle.
used to irritate us to get my uncle.
now got uncle already, he wan doctor plak.
haiyo. ppl kept on saying, "sabar farr. old man. always like this"
so im like ok lor.
and my dad always got tricked. wonder why...
does he look like a play toy ppl!??
we got a big family, yes, we look like we're rich.
but pls! he's supporting 3 families!! seriously!
dun mess with his money pls. so far, ppl owe him. i know it's thousands of dollars.
but they wont be able to pay him. so FAT hope he's gonna be rich.
so stop using him!! HATE U!!!
so old already. i call u CIK. and u keep calling urself ABG.
pls la!! u got anak already. dun ABG ABG me. SHIT U!
gosh! so fed up with this kinda ppl.

k stop this farr! sabar! =))

WHAT A LONG POST! FUUHH!!
so now, i need to get up at 1030am latest.
hope i can wake up. =PP
so, end this post now.
MISS ME! =))

Some pics took with peybu. =))

Happy 17th Birthday!

2009-12-18T01:01:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY KHAIRUL SOBRE!!

ABG OB SEYY!!!

Finally u joined de gang, so how was the sabo?

memorable? u wanted that right??

hope u like our presents. =))

will post pics, once uploaded.

again,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHAI!!!!

MISS ME! =))

Happy 20th anniversary MAMA and PAPA! ♥♥♥

2009-12-17T22:29:00.004+08:00

SWEET NYE MAMA AND PAPA KU!! =))

HEY!!! Gosh! i totally forgot that tday's my parents' 20th anniversary!!

how bad can a daughter be? but not too late!! =))

still can wish them here, facebook and plurk. hees..

well, i just got back and now blogging coz i don't want them to majok again.

i reached home, my mum sleeping on my bed. SUPER CUTE!!! ^_^

then i wake her up, and she said BOO! haha! cute kn!! =PP

then she say asl lambat? baru nk ajak gi mkn pizza hut.

then i say la, what's the occasion..?

and she said it's their anniversary and i forgot! GOSH!!!

then she majok with me seyyy!!! =((

then she go to her room and ignored me till i got changed.

then i went to my room and saw her sitting on my bed.

and i hugged, kissed and manjer2 with her lorr.

haha!!! missed all that with dearest mummy la!

SORRY MA!!! nurul lupe. tpi da ingt!! =)))

so, hope u won't fight with papa alot k? though nvr saw anything happening before.

hees. =.=

HAPPY 20th ANNIVERSARY MAMA AND PAPA!!!
♥♥♥

will be updating on BBQ with rotten 6 and khai's birthday bash!! =)))

and till then,

MISS ME!! =))

Lost in a maze

2009-12-16T23:36:00.002+08:00

HELLO! hmm... just feel like blogging coz feeling so insecure and lost.

just dun feel like myself nowadays.

well, everybody thinks i'm having a great time in my life.

thinks that i let go of things easily.

thinks that i forget things easily.

gosh, nobody really knows how i am. how i feel.

yes, i may show my bubbly side. i always crack jokes, always laugh.

but hell no! thats not what i'm feeling inside of me.

i cry evry night. thinking abt evrything i could possibly think.

i nvr wanna let it out to anybdy. i can only let out my feelings here, in my blog.

just feel so lost. so insecure. so troubled so haywire.

lucky for me, beautiful and handsome friends are ard to cheer me up each day.

thanks guys! Love u MUCH!

guess i'm gonna end here. need to try to get something out of BCS to my head.

MISS ME!! =)))

What a Blast!

2009-12-16T12:54:00.003+08:00

Hello again! i'm finally free to blog. but not that free, just taking a break.

so, things have been happening these few days.

i dnnoe where to start, but 1 thing's for sure falling in love is so wrong but it feels right.

hmm, what am i saying? but nvm.

so, yesterday was a blast, started off by being late for organic chem paper. WTH!

nvm, was mugging the night before, till 3am ppl! =))

so after the paper, we headed off to KFC, wanted to eat. well, we reached early for lunch.

so we slack at KFC for awhile and talk and talk. haha!

then got this kids, their voice like upin and ipin seyy!!! i thought i was listening to the radio.

then turned my head and saw this cute lil girl and lil boy.

so then we had our lunch. and yan called asking abt my papers. well, Organic chem was ok.

but maths? hmm. sucks!!! dnnoe what will biochem sci be...

but nvm.

k back to us. after lunch, hamka wanted to rush home.

sembunyi bwh ketiak mak. haha! maen2 je hamka!! =))

so khai and hamka went off.

baby lin, me and ifah waited for cun (ifah's BF).

well, we decided to take a break and go bugis, and hamka also kirim a baju.

so ya, we headed to bugis. well, we look and look for the shirt. wow!

it's just so hard to get male clothes! IRRITATING! haha!

then done our mission, he headed to national library.

well, went there just to camwhore awhile. haha!

then we headed down to city hall, to eat dinner i think.

coz cun havnt eat. alamak! tknk blg siang2 tau. haha! jkjk!

me and baby lin shared a bowl or mee hongkong. haha! *miniwok....*

then go esplanade and chill.

and guess who i found there!!!

it's AYU!!! gosh do i miss that bitch!! =))

the last time i saw her was at prom. ceh tk lah. i also dnnoe when.

i hugged her like what sey, haha! she was with her mataer lorr.

haha!

so it was 7pm already, i think.

baby lin wanted to head home by bus. HMPH!

then i become tiang lampu, best perr!!

ceh tk lah. it was ok la, not so awkward.

then we planned to go bongo or they catch a movie and i head home.

then ifah say, "k lah2. kite gi bongo la, tgk peybu jap."

then i smile like untill koyak. haha!

so we reached bongo ard 8.30pm. then cun blanje us ben and jerry. i got cookie dough!

YUMMIE!!! so long nvr eat that. haha.

then i saw bu, awww.... so hawt! =PP

then we waited for peybu to get changed and evrything at KFC there.

then just chill. and they start to melatah me. hmph!

but nvm, i like! haha. just that i'm tired.

then got this one time only left with me, ifah, cun and bu. =))

then cun and ifah make me melatah say i love u bu!...

and i said it. and i blushed. haha! EMBARRASING!!!

then ya, they sent us off at the taxi stand. and we headed home.

reached home at abt 11.30pm.

then i msg2 with bu and slack at home.

then at 2am talked otf with bu all the way till 4.35am... SO LONG!!! =))

WOW!

haha! so now here i am, just wake up from sleep and feel like blogging. will post pics soon! waiting for ifah's pics... =))

heading down to ifah's place soon. to mug again. =.="

ok. guess now im going to bathe!

miss me!! =))

Job well done dear friend ♥

2009-12-14T21:26:00.002+08:00

Hey, i'm too busy to update now.

but really need to release this here.

bare with me. i'm too wowed.

well, can't believe u said what u said.

even my friends who know what i've been thru in life dun bug in my life.

and u on the other hand just spoke shit.

telling him. trusted the fact that u'd help me out thru thick and thin.

i've been doing that for u, making u feel better. hearing ur probs day in and day out.

but yea, so shocked what u told him.

and for ur info, this is my test period.

u have been missing frm my life since last wk, u dnnoe what im going thru, so shut the fuck up!

jolly well say what i said.

what? she said she's studying but i dun think she's studying. ive known her for a long time.

FUCK IT! u dnnoe me!! u dn study with me! how do i study? do u know? NO!

so just shut ur fucking mouth and mind ur own life!

so much for calling u a friend.

when there's someone for u, im forgotten.

when no one's there, call me, need my company.

Why the hell does this things keep happening to me.

hmm. So much fun isit hanging out with u? so not!!

wasted my time! can study at home, better still.

such a loser. i pity u sometimes, especially ur problems.

now i understand why those things happen to u.

ok, let out enough.

and now im just plain studying boring organic chem...

hmm. it's 9.40pm now. soon, a text message will be received.

and the name shown will be Peybu <3>

hees. too many things happening today, i'm lost.

due to these things, maths paper this afternoon sucks to the core.

hope organic chem, will be better.

and Biochem sci, will survive.

gotta study now, take care!

MISS ME!!! <33

Missing in Action

2009-12-10T09:09:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps! =))

sorry for the late post. too busy with school!

GOSH! i'm so stressing out now! well, basically due to the fact that common test is next wk!

AARGGGHH!! and there's another quality cntrol test tmw. haiyo. not examinable, but so many tests. so anyway, while i've been away, so many things happened. seriously..

i dnnoe where to start.

let's strt frm my silat competition the other day at YCK CC.

well, we didnt win anyting. ='(

i was seriously thinking that i'd get a third again. coz the way i see things, they didnt put in 100%

i'm so pissed. and ya, i cried. guess when u drop ur weapon, means no chance of winning.

damn these wet hands. if nt my fan wouldn't drop.

oh ya!!! a few ppl came down!

firstly, farhan, mia, rai, arman and fee!

they gotta catch my solo. and ya! while performing, i heard all kinds of cmments from them.

very hilarious! some were "OMG! tu farr?", "wahh! dier leh uat gitu?"

and more...

felt so proud.

then soon, linda came down(also caught up with my solo).

and hunny came. but he didnt catch any of my performance. hmph!

thx korg for coming down! i'm sorry i didnt win.

so, the few days were like the same as always, but with more jokes!

one of the days, i dropped by HC.

then spend the whole time talking to friends there, i mean i've not been seeing them for ages.

then didnt look at the time and it's near midnight. but i felt like walking home.

so i walked home at that hour! like seriously, alone!!!

but ya, im a pengecut also, so, i called my friend. hmm. technically, he called back.

well, the last time i webcam with him was i dnnoe, last 3-4 months?

then i webcam with him last wk i think, and wow! what a change!

hahah... no lah, i love the way u are now, seriously. that time, very seram... haha! NO LA!

but now more tembam, so cute! haha!

so, have been wanting to blog abt my dear friend, but have been busy.

and he's like asking me to update evryday. haha!

and now, i'm waiting for time to pass. coz someone is going to sch with me! by bike!

baek abg! can't mention his name here. ltr a she wolf attack me. haha!

okok, i missed so many lessons la! and ya, i'm broke!!!

DAMN!

can't wait for tmw!! gathering with dear 6th rotten excos! and philoe will be in singapore!! =)

and coming wk will be our chalet! tmw's BBQ will be at tim's place.

i'm so excited! hope evrybdy will turn up, I MISS THEM!

k, guess i'll stop here.

take care ppl!

MISS ME! =)))

Silat Much!

2009-12-02T20:18:00.002+08:00

Hello people! Sorry for updating super late about silat competition.

have been busy with school, tests coming up!

gosh! 2 more weeks to Common test then HOLIDAY! =))

but common test. shoot! haha!

kk, so now talk about my competition...

firstly, i hate the masal part. i drop my weapon sey!!! WTF!

i didnt even realise i dropped it untill i notice ppl watching.

but lucky for me, i continued on well.

usually i'd panic and just black out.

haha! but no. unfortunately, our grp, only 1 of us won. which is ME!! =))

i got third though.

ppl say that they were biased and didnt wanna give us.

i mean like we're better than some of the winners but we didnt even get a third.

it's not us being boastful. but seriously, we got so many comments from other grp's guru...

so ya, what we know is that, ppl still see us as winners.

so, we're still happy.

this coming sunday will be our next competition.

same time.... at yiochukang cc. im not sure where. but i know it's at Angmokio...

so, here are some photos i got frm my hp... =))

Enjoy!

WOO!! srikandi Kuningan! won third! =))

Embarrasing sey! only one who won in the group

One minute to results... still can snap one pic! hehes..

Baek Melaty!

Just camwhoring while waiting for results (mawar n melaty)

rahman with melaty!

Aww... the girls of the grp! mawar, melaty and yana!

Mawar and Melaty =))

mawar and Al-Matin

Adek Al-matin and me!

Cute kan dier!!!! GERAM SEY!! haha!

Beautiful Lazy Sunday

2009-11-29T13:44:00.005+08:00

Hello again!

just plain bored trying to practice maths. Tmw's test is on intergration. GOSH!

I'm supposed to do BCS lab report. Guess what! I dun really know what i'm supposed to do. OMG right...? sorry linda and ifah for having such worthless member in the grp. but i'm trying my best! =))

well, so today is hamka and hatta turning 17! baek adek2 ku! =))

so wishing u a happy 17th birthday...! together with BOB and JERRY! =)

hope u enjoy the rest of 29/11/09 meaningfully! =)

now i'm just sending lab photos from my hp to my cuzzin's then to my lappy...

LECEH!

HMPH!

so havent meet hunny for quite sometime. haha! WTH! thurs aru umpe.

OMG! thurs! lame sey tu! wow! =PP

i'm not obsessed with him ok! bluek!

so ya, missing my baby! wondering what she's doing now. so silent.

nvr text me... nvr msn me... nvr oovoo me... ='(

majok uh ngn baby!

monday dun talk to me ah!!! haha! no lah.. monday i give u a long kiss ok baby??

wondering how she is with that botak guy... haha!

talking abt it, hmm... guess what happened that day!!

we were walking home i think. that outside de LTQ the botak sitting with his members.

then my baby saw him and take cover! LITERALLY take cover!!

like as though kene bomb...! she pull me sey!! and ran all the way to outside the toilet.

very hilarious! the look on her face! 1 word... CACAT! haha!

kk stop! sorry baby!

better end now. cuzzin wanna use my lappy to facebook-ing... =))

well, ohya! i caught NEW MOON with baby! =D

BEST LA! i mean OMG! taylor lautner HOT LA!

he's like the whole package la! He got the face which is CUTE!

he got the HOT bod! and ya, he's my age! OMG KAN!!! =PP

everytime part he's bod is on screen, i'll be like...

BABY! he's so hot la! tk leh angs la! i'm so cair already! OMG!

and she's like yelah! she's obsessed with Rob. eww! haha!

and i'm obsessed with taylor!! WWWWOOOOHHOOO!!!!

=))

kk, cuzzin tgu dari tadik. kesian dier...

so i promise to update on silat soon!

MISS ME! =))

Lost in my own world

2009-11-26T10:47:00.002+08:00

So many things happening in my life.

it's 26/11/09... happy birthday FARHAN! =))

so sorry for everything...

too many things in my life now.

i fucked my life BIG TIME!

yesterday really sux!

first got into a big merepek fight.

and ya, i was the fire starter AGAIN.

so sick of this shit.

then as time flies.

the bitch uat hal. i just sabar... only linda knows...

thx babe for being there.

then at night met up with mia...

she needed to use my lappy so bad...

so we headed to her hse, she said an wasnt home.

when we reach, he's home...!

then i forced myself in, and ya, he slammed the door on me.

ouch i know. but i did worse to him.

so its ok. so long nvr go her hse. after the big thing.

i felt sooo awkward. i mean ya.

then mak ngah and ibu's conversation really hit me.

mak ngah dnnoe that we're just friends now.

makngah: aik, mataer pt luar. dier nye tdo?

ibu: dah hari2 nampak muke, lagipon bsk dier keje. mataer dier plak ntah bile nk tinggi2...

makngah: lahh... ok...

Rai (sebok2 masok campor) : memang dier, pendek aje!

OMG la... i was so hit....

then headed home ard midnight... by then an was asleep.

wanted to wish him happy birthday.

but nvm, ure working, so i wont disturb u... =))

now at PED tutorial....

super boring... the tutor talking to the whiteboard. hahaha!!

kk, till here... will update on silat competition soon!

MISS ME! =)))

Random post

2009-11-21T19:47:00.009+08:00

Hello! =))

At LTQ1 with moon and boon.

Aww.. the person that has always been there for me. =)

Just doing stupid poses

ermm...

HAHA!

alien headed. one big the other small. and their in love! =PPP

choc chip cream frappe! =DD

ooohhh.... soo moon!! haha!

hamka and ifah

at starbucks

with hamka

haha! my face so minah sey!

with hatta acting what he always do, acting cool..

9 yrs of friendship. =)

HATTA! jgn act cool la! SMILE! =))

I'm just blogging to relax myself.

so nervous for tmw. hmm... my mum still can ask me kemas rumah. hmph.

so i'm just posting things that me,linda,ifah and laen2 do when we're bored/during breaks.

And these are just some of the photos.

There's hundreds of them. i just put in some.

so, gtg now.

mummy calling already.

MISS ME! =)))

COMPETITION!!

2009-11-20T22:59:00.002+08:00

22nd November 2009

My competition, solo puteri and masal

venue: Henderson CC

Estimated time: 9am-5pm (most likely later)

hopes this ppl will come...

-Mummy and Daddy and Family

-Yan

-BFFLs: mia, yayat, nifa, nad and aisyah

-Mates: linda, khai, hamka, ifah, farhan and yg laen la

-Farhan

-Nana

well, ni yg i remember so far... really really hope korg dtg kays??

tk leh tkpe. i understand coz of distance and schedule and work and stuff like that.

so better end here. need to rest, just got back from training.

aches everywhere especially legs...

night korg!

MISS ME!! =DD

Just being bored

2009-11-20T10:38:00.003+08:00

Falling asleep now! Quality Control is really wasting my time larr! haha! =DD

well, just felt like blogging now. hees...

coz i know u guys miss me right!!?? *kening naek2*

19/11/09

so many things happened yesterday.

hmmm. where do i start....

ok, first thing in the morning. i was late! and as per normal, if i'm late, ramdan will call me.

wonder how he does that. when i'm early or on time, he wont call me.

but if i'm late he'd call.

cool kan!!?? haha!

kk. so we reached school ard 9+.

PED lecture was over by then. cikgu very pemalas..! haha!

but she's lawa seyy!! OMG!

ok. then like someone pissed me off.

being all bossy and ordering me ard. WTF!

but ya. then my mood was off after that.

then thought a moment to myself.

hunny fetching me, why sedih. so i was hype like usual again. =))

suddenly hunny called. he's stucked outside his house.

haiyo. really felt bad. coz he didnt get enough rest and i wanted to meet him like so bad.

but told him just update me if anything! then suddenly he called and said he's otw to NYP.

i was smiling all the way. excited to meet him!

then he kinda surprised me. coz i didnt expect him to know his way to wherever i were at.

then he hugged me from the back and kissed me. hees... *blushing*

then he was pissed with me.

sorry syg... =((

then gado abit and ok already.

haiyo. farr, better change k babe!! always make hunny pissed and mad.

hmph!

then linda, ifah, hamka went off home..

me and hunny just stayed and talk2...

then planned to spend the night together. but someone called saying he needs to go to work. ='(

saket hati sey dgr. hmph. but nvm, work means work k hunny?

haiz. asyik gado aje kite ni. but nvm.

it always make me love u more for tomorrow and never lesser from today.

=DD

then he sent me till yishun coz he's late for work. so i headed home to meet nana for training.

OMG! it's like 2 more days to competition! WTH!

and ya, got the venue!

it's at Yio chu kang CC! at amk! better be there.

watch me !!! =DD

timing is between 10am-6pm... but not cnfirmed. hees.

better end now... cncntrate farr!!! =))

MISS ME! =D

I will be there at the end of the day

2009-11-17T18:18:00.002+08:00

Today really sucks. But everything's fine now.

started from last night actually. slight argument turned into a huge one.

i cried all night till i fell asleep. luckily i wasnt late for school.

really felt bad so decided to try and put things right. i made the first move.

fucked me upside down after that with words that really started my day "very well"...

ever since, long texting back and forth.

didnt expect anything but it was over. thought about it till a call came along.

was having quality control lecture.

went out to answer the call. really thought it was important.

got those words again till i went for lab.

OMG! im the class rep but i was the last one to enter lab.

teacher was abit pissed. i'm sorry.

text again. but got a call again about my ego.

well, gotta admit, my ego's super high.

school ended at 5pm. and the whole day mind was off.

off about this.

threw tantrums at ppl. with cramps. what a fucking day!

didnt even wanna eat. just ate puffs and biscuits. just the thought of it in my head.

wondering what actions done, what's gonna happen...

finally, when i was otw home.

got a call. i answered. no words hurt me. just words which made me smile.

i was just speechless.

wanted to rest so hung up the phone and here i am blogging.

just received a text msg, saying...

"i can't imagine a minute without you. i love you more than yesterday, and my love never lesser for tomorrow."

smiling damn widely right now. dnnoe what to do, dnnoe what to say.

just wanna see u again and feel the warmth of ur hugs.

I love u hunny! =))

♥ 24/10/09 ♥

Excitement!

2009-11-15T23:10:00.002+08:00

Hello again! Just really feel like blogging.

Too stressed out studying maths for tomorrow's test. so, alot of things happened today.

firstly met up with linda and ifah. had lunch first. then didnt expect hunny to come down there.

kinda surprise for me but yea loved it coz he was there. =))

he's supposed to teach me maths the whole of today. but too bad, we got commitments.

he had his night class and i need to get back to ifah and linda.

so i rode on his bike...! wee... best la!!

but kn, he abit giler. speed untill like super fast.

i was like SLOW DOWN!! haha...

farr pengecut sikit part ni. hahahahaha!!

so we went to blaja la. he taught me smpi bingit sey! im sorry dear.

im dumb sometimes. hmm. lotsa ppl say im dumb all the time. so ya... haha! =DD

he really saved me for tmw's test. now i'm suppose to continue my revision.

but having a break to blog. haha! sempat sey farr...

so tmw's gonna be a tiring day for me.

school starts at 8am. ends around 3pm. then meet nana to train silat (abit).

then at night training with the rest (intensive).

so many bruises. really hope i can win something after all the hardwork i put for this.

hmm. i'm confident ok!! thx to ppl ard me always supporting me...

let's name them... haha! if not mentioned sorry. if mentioned, means i really want u to come and because of u my smangat is there to train. =))

Tok Rahim, Abg Nas, family, Yan, Linda, Ifah, Hamka, Khai, BFFLs, Farhan, Farhan NYP, dzul, Nana, bdk2 silat and all la yg help out or will be coming or have been motivating me and supporting me so that i nvr give up.

sorry coz i almost gave up solo category. but i wnna prove that i am who i am.

haha!! sounds a lil wrong. but nvm.

ok, better get back to revision, if not Yan bising. hehehe...

Sayang kamu! =))

Miss me ok!! =DDD

Is it true?

2009-11-14T18:52:00.003+08:00

A very close friend told me this.

If you love something, let it go.

If it comes back to you, its yours forever.

If it doesnt, then it was never meant to be.

If it's true, i'm always here waiting for it to come back to me....

Silat Training

2009-11-14T18:33:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps! decided to blog this post yellow coz it's about silat training... which is KUNINGAN! =))

so well, today is suppose to be a long training as it's a Saturday and i was looking forward to it.

Then when i reach fuchun cc which was at 2.30pm, i was alone.

i called my mate and he said strt at 3pm.

i was pissed abit. i mean my mood swing came back. i cant help it, with all the cramps. i easily get mad at ppl. so bear with me k?

then i practice my solo a lil before the rest came.

then my tok silat called me, saying he's stuck at dnnoe where. if he havnt reach at 5.30pm, we can just go off. so i was like ok! =D

then one by one came... i was very down coz tired. then suddenly mood changed and i became that crazy farr again. haha...

then we practice our masal, so many changes. we got mixed up but manage to pull thru. =)

fun la!! we were really slacking sey! since i'm the only girl, as usual, i always got bullied.

hmph...!

nvm, got used to it already...

so while practising, all kind of craps happened...

saiful's seluar got buttons. then haikal "stripped" him... and mcm2 la...

become bapok la, so many things la... hilarious la!

so after that we just lepak...

then 5.30pm, so we went off...

man, im and adi went off...

the rest headed to teh tarik. haikal and wan got themselves nasi ayam to eat at ful's house.

me and ful waited there... then we head off...

they went to lepak at ful's house. while i headed home...

now here i am just blogging while waiting for family to siap...

we got kenduri today, my nek cik and tok cik going haji so got kenduri for them..

and my atok just went home from hospital after his bypass...

alhamdulillah he's ok now...

still remembered him not talking much and not wanting to eat.. sedih u know!! ='(

but he's ok now... =DDDD

so better end here. if not mama bising sey... her voice ah, FUHH!! tk leh angs!! haha!

Miss me!! =)))

Hello New World!

2009-11-13T17:19:00.004+08:00

Hello peeps! guess what!

living the single life now!

WOW! so going to enjoy this lifestyle to the fullest.

no one to restrict me from doing anything.

GOSH! i love myself! =DDD

SINGLE LIFE!

Random stuff with Darling Friends =DD

2009-11-13T17:19:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps!! missed me?

well, have been wanting to update my blog since ages ago. but yea, either too tired or too lazy.

we have been having crazy days personally. each and evryone of us.

haha! lol!

we caught Paranormal Activity yesterday. It was so FUN yet scary!!

haha!! but ya, we were so terrified la.

i mean like hamka and hatta who act cool everytime were scared also.

hamka closed his eyes sey!! i saw! and he hid behind ifah at some scenes sey! WTH kn!! =P

ya and the last part was super scary...!

but the best part is, there's two endings to it. go find the second one urself!! hees... =D

it has been crazy these days la... like our jokes getting funnier... have been laughing our ass off sey!

it's very fun being with them. whenever i'm down, i'm always happy being with them.

but whenever i'm at home, i really feel super down. i mean thinking about everything i could possibly think of. so basically, i havent got over certain things that may look like i got over.

ya, im smiling just for the sake of smiling.

but deep inside, only God knows...

but i'm happy with my life now, with Yan, and all my friends there to cheer me up.

thanks korg. =DD

SSSSSSSSAYANG KORG! =)) sorry hamka kacau kau nye SSSS!! hahaha!

Now about silat. well i've been improving ppl!! weee.....
thx to nana.. got my steps right. weee... haha!
OMG! i'm so excited for the competition! no matter how nervous i get, i'm still looking forward to it. =DD
better be there ok people! =))
it's next Sunday, venue not sure... hees...

guess gotta end here. hamka angry liao. haha! i can't stop typing this particular letter SSSSSS...
haha... kk... miss me!! =DDD

Just another post...

2009-11-07T23:49:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps! =))

well, now i'm just pure tired. But really feel like blogging so here i am.

well, it's saturday. so de normal. went for extra training.

well, basically training for upcoming silat competition.

i so wnna win. coz like da dpt spotlight, so must win!!

but i've got no cnfidence. coz i so suck now after so long no training.

so ya, hope to improve so much. got like 2 wks to train sey... =((

but kan, i so love the group nye part la... COOL!!! haha... hope we win in that category.

then like ya, in between trainings got breaks.

then as per normal, tok open some new moves to us. well, he said KEEP IT TO OURSELVES like so many times. so i guess cant go on. coz it's kinda dirty, haha! I LIKE!! =)))

well, it's about self defence sey! haha! i like the ball bearing part. LMAO!

then after training, slack at teh tarik. met up wf nana tgther with the two haikals...

slack2... then went home to wash up. (damn tired!!)

but then, have to meet linda to get de microsoft office disc. coz need to do lab report. =S

but nvm, my semangat is there so weee... =DD

wanted to meet darling yan. but like he got kenduri, then if wnna meet, need to go sengkang.

jauh pe, my mum dah bising abt going hme late. so like ya, sorry hunny!

now i think he's mad at me la but ya, i met member coz of assignment. tidak i stay home and rest.

but ya, nana tagged along to meet linda. got the disc and went to get my mum her plum drink.

she had been asking for that drink, sounds wrong right?

feel like asking her this, " mama mengidam ni ader lagi ke ?" get it?

so like ya, when we reached msl, nana was like nk trberak!!

then i say, go home la, rumah dkat wat.

then she mati2 wnna berak at msl stn, so i went off frst.

coz abg call already. hmph!

so now just waiting for darling yan to reply my msgs... =((

and ya, missing smeone so much...! miss hugging that person so much!

hope it's not a mistake that i've made. ='(

ok, shud end here now. body aching too much and really hope all of u can be there to support me during my competition... 22nd Nov. make urselves free!! =DD

Miss me!!! <3

Happy 19th Birthday Mastura!

2009-11-06T00:23:00.005+08:00

Hello peeps!!! =DDD

First things first...

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MASTURA!!! =))))

Wow, MRT kite da kakak MRT sey. haha! jkjk. so ya. hope ur wishes do come true.

Maintain ur lovely smile. Improve ur style hor!! hahaha...

I LOVE YOU MAS!!

So like ya, we 'celebrated' mas' birthday.

the three babes of C1

aww... hugging sweet birthday girl....

ifah and birthday girl...

haslinda and birthday girl...

today was not much excitement for me. well, we only had 2hrs of school.

after we're done celebrating dear mastura's birthday, they had to study for a maths test.

so like tk leh kacau... so me, ifah, linda and ramdan just sat dwn and kinda slack.

it was raining, so was perfect timing for me to go to my lala land. =D

my head was seriously spinning round. mybe coz of ramdan's cologne. but usually not, so i guess it's just my head.

then ifah wanted to eat so much. so headed to mac, ramdan had to blanje ifah coz he lost the bet.

he's supposed to beat ifah to sch evryday, but seems like he didnt.

haha! then now he wnna bet with me abt the same issue.

coz im also always late like him. HMPH!

then me, ifah and linda went to catch My Girlfriend's An Agent. Super kelakar la!

wnna watch it again can!!!

really laughed my ass off. then headed to AMK hub's mac and waited for khai and hamka.

then ate mcflurry and just talk craps and the jinx game, but i always melatah their name so like GRR!!!

I was kinda pissed tday with smebdy though. i mean stop being arrogant and all that.

ppl praise u so much that u become like this i guess... u've totally changed.

but all i can do is live with it. and ya, trying to accept things the way it is now.

So, thought of meeting darling. but wasnt feeling too well to even board the train alone.

ifah and hamka help me to the train and off home.

thx korg! then met nana at msl stn and headed to my place.

used de lappy for awhile but really talked more. so many things not updated abt us.

then i txt darling yan and he asked me to meet him under my blk.

i was like WHAT!! he's under my blk???

how sweet can he be? i mean a day at work under the sun then still cn cme down to msl.

he live very far sme more. i really love u lah can!!!

then had a long chat. and we're off home. he got me nuggets though. cute kn?? hahaha!

okok tk cute, but sweet... (dnnoe why he doesnt like being labeled cute)

so ya, guess gotta end here if not tmw cnnt wake up for sch... =S

miss me peeps! Love u all!

=)))

Lab report MUCH!

2009-11-01T23:54:00.002+08:00

Hello AWESOME ppl! =))

i'm back blogging... hahaha...

well, had a lot going thru now. but i still can blog coz i really feel like blogging abt it.

Firstly, i must say this, HAPPY 45Th BIRTHDAY DADDY!!! =))

we didnt really celebrate it coz me and my brother had school matters to finish.

i got a feeling daddy was upset about it.

sorry, but at least i was there with my family celebrating it and NOT with my friends.

Family do matter for me ok!!

so first passed him his present. OMG! he's like 45!

I got him an Adidas shirt which i got from Vietnam. =PP

mummy and adek2 got him jeans.

so ya, we literally queued up to give him a kiss on his cheeks!! how sweet are we??!

i was the last one coz like i'm the eldest and ya, my abg wasnt there so i'm the last child to kiss.

then mummy was like "MY TURN!"

i was like WAH! excited sey dier!

and she kissed him on his lips... i was like AWWW........

so ya, then they headed to atok's place. and i was alone at home.

waiting for darling Yan to reply my texts. Finally, he called after mummy went off.

i was like bagus, at least he teman me, im not alone after all...

So tday, planned to finish lab report with ifah and linda.

But ifah kinda canceled it with no valid reasons. so ya, we just assume that she's tired after work.

so drew my onion cell, snapped photos and went off to meet linda.

before that, some frens jz was having their problems. i feel so guilty not being there.

but ya, planned to meet linda at 5pm but ended up meeting her at 5.22pm.

always late, That's us. Sorry... =))

made our way to marina square, had early dinner and started work.

but ya, spend most of the time talking. at least we finished it!! =DD

so ya, headed to Ben and Jerry's to eat ice-cream!

i had cookie dough (FAV!!) and tried de strawberry cheesecake(yayat said it was nice, so decided to try). Linda got herself choc fudge brownie.

we waited for darling Yan coz he wasnt in the mood. well, bad hair day.

he wanted to trim abit. but ended up BOOM! guess that's what he means...

so i was hoping i could cheer him up.

so ya, we just started having a bite and he called and said im here.

i was like, woah! that was fast!

so headed outside to meet him. Linda got to know him more i suppose... haha!

and ya, we really spent our time to chit chat.

Baek gossip, puji and whatever la....

so ya, then headed home...

as usual, linda dropped off at AMK. and we continued on to marsiling.

then ya, decided to spend more time with darling Yan. so ya, sat down and bobal la...

so we had a "talk"... hahaha!

and man, he's scary at times ok!! he knows everything abt me!

but sometimes i do love it coz like i dn have to say much but he knew.

not like some guys, who expects everything frm us. THX!

ya, then he sent me to my blk.

as usual, hugged and kissed. and hugged damn tight again.

haha!!! =)))

so now, suppose to finish tutorials but ya, need to chill abit.

lastly,

khai: no matter what happens, have faith. dun always think the negative. i'm always here if u need a punching bag. i mean it. u wnna sparr? bring it on! hahaha!!

Linda: u've been there for me all this while. thx alot. hope i can do the same for u. so ya, if u need me to chill or what. just press my number and i'm there. CEHH!!! magic pe?? haha!

Mia: i'm sorry for everything i said. didnt mean it. u're the one whom i trust the most. whom i really share my secrets with. so ya, i hope i am too. =)) missing the chilling sessions and confession sessions with u.

Ifah: not hearing much from u nowadays. hope u're doing ok. stay mepek and lame k girl? =))

Hamka: heard abt ur fren's death. sorry to hear. but be strong. ppl have to go when they have to. im always here too! =))

BFFLs: sorry i couldnt make it for the Wild wild wet. missing everyone of u LOTS! hope u guys had fun that day. though i do feel missed out like all the time now... =(( i know i'm there in ur heart right?? and ya, i got alot to update u guys. MISS U!! =DDD

Guess that's all for now...

will update the photos soon! PROMISE! =)))

MISS ME PPL!!!

Slacking at Mac

2009-10-30T16:27:00.002+08:00

Guten Tag!!!

(good afternoon in german)

I'm at school's Mac now... slacking ard waiting for time to past.

yea to past to meet Yan.

so here with me are hamka, khai, linda and ifah.

weeee.... we have been eating ice-cream from yesterday sey!!

stupid menses la!! make us want ice-cream only.

and ya, i'm like getting thinner la ok!!

i've no0t been eating recently. thx to this flu! I can't taste a thing!

Last night got fight otf...

ya, i heard everything and just don't care to elaborate.

thx to darling Yan, i feel alot better now.

last night we hung up earlier than normal.

nvm, Yan very tired mah. tmw need to go work.

then i also sleepy but as per normal, i can't sleep.

but when i opened my eyes, it was 8am. Gosh nasib tk lambat sey!

and i had a nightmare that night. my eyes were full of tears when i woke up. =(

so ya, now we're like here talking, eating and everything we can do la.

and ya, trying to get khai to do his dare which like was given from ages ago!!

promised us to do it when school starts but ya, it's the end of 2nd wk now khai!! hmph.!!

haha. and ya, congrats on ur first month tgether.

last long k korgs!! =DDD

pape, aku kat sini utk korg.. hehe... and support me on my competition day!!! =PPP

ya, so i guess i'm ending my post here.

WUNDERBAR! (wonderful i guess) hahaha!

and ya. any problem just meet me aites. i'm always here for anyone of u! =DD

MISS ME!! =))

Broken-hearted Girl

2009-10-29T20:03:00.003+08:00

Hello again. Just felt like Putting this here, It means alot to me... The song is great!

ENJOY!

You’re everything I thought you never were

And nothing like I thought you could’ve been

But still you live inside of me

So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget

The only one I’d love to not forgive

And though you break my heart, you’re the only one

And though there are times when I hate you

Cause I can’t erase

The times that you hurt me

And put tears on my face

And even now while I hate you

It pains me to say

I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe

I don’t want a broken heart

Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you

But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no

I don’t want a broken heart

And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...

NoNo broken-hearted girl

I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say

But up to now I’ve always been afraid

That you would never come around

And still I want to put this out

You say you’ve got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me

And still you’re in my heart

But you’re the only one and yes

There are times when I hate you

But I don’t complain

Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away

Oh but now I don’t hate you

I’m happy to say

That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe

I don’t want a broken heart

Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no

I don’t want a broken heart

And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…

NoNo broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…

OoooI’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah

Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free

To spread my wings and fly away

Away With you yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby

I don’t wanna a broken heart

Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..

NoI don’t want a broken heart I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..

No..No..No broken-hearted girl

Broken-hearted girl No…no… No broken-hearted girl

No broken-hearted girl

Time to move on, Farr!

2009-10-29T19:10:00.002+08:00

Hello again! I know i've been missing for some time now.

Well, have been having tonnes of problems, in relationships and everything la!

So ya, i decided to let go of my past.

no intentions of getting into any relationships.

but, ya well, met someone. he's good looking la but well, kinda tanned. HAHA!

but ya, though he's super straightforward, i kinda love his presence.

U say whatever u want, but it's my choice to make.

I have to admit the fact that i'm falling for him.

So, ya, whatever it is. i'm still me so Fuck it la...! =DDD

well, good news! I'm back in silat la sey!! I'm so glad la!

like finally i'm in...! and now, really training hard for competition.

Please be there sygs! On 22nd november 2009. Venue to be cnfrmed.

And remember, support me! hahaha!

i promise to give my best shot.

And i'm in the "solo puteri" la!! How loving the spotlight cn i get? =DDD

ok so ya. have been sick ever since my wrecked relationship.

Dun think it's getting better though. but ya, medicines every 6 hrs. =S

and 2nd week of sch i got 2 days of MC.

I'm so going to miss alot.

Well, coz once i get MC, i'm so gonna be lazy to go lectures and tutorials.

I wanna buck up man!!!!

My GPA for semester 1 is so not memuaskn la cn??

but ya, i'm cnfident i can do it.

With Yan ard, things will be simpler in school. (i hope)

ya, so overall, sch is like normal, suckx at some time but great at others... =)

guess i'm finishing it here.

tonight fav shows lah sey!!

Legend of the seeker, followed by project runway and like finally ANTM!

ala, but i watch finish ANTM already! =DD

and ya, hate the winner. But well, what to do... glad she made it as a runner-up.

Oh ya i forgot.! my german name is Andrea! will try talking in german to korg OK!?

ya. Miss me!! =)))